Happy tang yuen everybody . Ermm....it's some chinese festival today . I guess u can call it a festival . I'm nt really familiar with it but I eat all these freaking rice balls every end of the year .
Soooo , I guess it's nt gonna rain on Chinese New Year .

*Looks out of window* . Owwhhhss wait !!! The sky is rather dark nw . Oh well , it just might . Neways , grandma told me that if it rains today , CNY will definitely rain . Or is it the other way round ? As in vice versa ? Oppsiee daisiiee...cant remember . Hehehess


Tang yuen . Yum yum ~~

Newaysssssss......Christmas is coming . And I sooooo cant wait . I luffit I luffit I LUFFIT !!!!




Really cute pug ~~ Owsss....*heart melts* ~~ so the cuteness

Annnnndddddddd.....I would like to THANK everyone for the Birthday wishes and all the lovely pressies . I love it !! And THANKSSSSS Jill , for all the great suprises last saturday . I had a blast . It was awesome .

Oritessss nw ~~ Merry Christmas to all and to all a Happy New Year .

-Ollie-


♥HAPPY DAPPY SEXY WHAMMY YUMMY BIRTHDAY OLLIE KUNG!!!♥




Olivia Kung a.k.a. Ollie, Ollie Dollie, Rollie Pollie Olie, and all your other itty bitty love names turns SEXY 19 TODAY [[ 18th December 2007 ]].***IF you dunno who Ollie is, ...*breathes in with wide open eyes nostrils and mouth* i dunno wad u to do with u or wad u are doin in this blog. Cous it's hers ( and mine ). Ollie is a social butterfly whose uncommon beauty tattoos itself in like.. nearly every guy's mind. And heart. Anything else and we dun need to noe. I heard horny ppl need rehab too. Never steps into a club wifout being noticed. Never leaves a club wifout at least one heart ( or guy, but i'm assuming she's easy to like because SHE IS to most people ), ....and mannnngsss, i think I saw this comment before : "WHEN SHE SWAYS, YOU JUST GET LOST IN IT". WOOHOO~~ AND TODAYYY, we have pics frm Amoeba'r to PROVE IT!! :D lollees :D but that's later, hold on to ur panties..She's daddy's lil girl and we love her for it. She's mummy's spoilt brat and she loves her for it. She's a hot girl and I think Kuching's lucky to have her, if not i am forced to believe that the white cat at Padungan der is the sexiest icon around. She doesn't drink a lot. But she noes how to have fun. AND she's so strong she makes fables look like bubbles. LALALALA~~ thennn, celebrated her 19th birthday last Saturday @ Amoeba'r, travilion with 40 odd ( as in '+', not weird ) people, 3 crates of beer, and an Absolut Pear.

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Seeme*Sherlyn*Mich*Ollie** THE GIRLS' PHOTO.
The captions ain't serious. If not i'm dead.Stevie & Ollie!


Girls : *arrive @ party lookin hawt to the max*Ollie : *screams* AAAAAHHHH!!! *sticks hands out in hugging gesture*Girls : *screams back in unison* OLLIIEEEEE!!!Ollie : MA BITCHESSSSS!!! *screams another time jus for effects* *BIG SEXY HUG*



- frm left : Lily, Doreen, Ollie, Karen -Mmmm.. i dun talk to Karen a lot, but I think we have the same taste in guys... we like bad boys. I met all of them duringggg.. *thinks* first nite out at The Office wit her buddies :D
I think she was half out of the house by the time the photo was taken. With her very trademark 'leg be poppin' pose :D AND Karen~~ wheee~~ pretty gals~~
Jian ( cousin ), Ollie, and Bert (bro). Hu's bro? -- i dunno~~ both of em i guesssss... not my DNA, but blood and alcohol~~
US ** Stevie / Jillie / Patrina / Phoebe / Steffi / Ollie :D
WE HAVE SEXYTIME TOGETHAGETHA cous we louveeeee each otherrrr!!
WE LOVE THE BIRTHDAY GIRL.She's not JUST darling. She's a darling cous she's been a darling to each and every one of us. Not jus cous she's hot enuf to be called darling, hamsapness. Yes, by this time her mind must have stopped recording wad was happening becos the alcohol made it do dat dat dat~~



AWWWW~~ isn't the cake cuteeeee? AHHAHA :D like Ollie. SHE LOVES SNOOPY. The cake (s)creams it all~~ Teeheesssss^^ Thanks to mummy ( Ollie's ) for picking the cake to surprise Ollie wen I was runnin late! :)))
Seriously, i dunno hu's under der. But he took it off to talk for a while becos i jumped wen he jus banged into me and sed "birthday girl birthday girl". He's funny.
Steffi : EYHHH!!! WE HAVEN'T TAKE PHO,TO, U NOEEEEEEE??Jill : yeaaaaaa~~ come come, we take!!Steffi : THE OFFICIAL PHOTOOO U NOEEEE, WE DUN HAVE!Jill : *OMG* yeaaaa!!! let's take let's TAKE!! :D hence, THE OFFICIAL PHOTO : Steffi ( official blog model ) & Jillie ( blog half owner )
*btw, the part of my hair dat reaches the boobs is an extension I got on that day :D hehehe :D 38 cm. HAPPY!**




The surprise performance : SHUFFLERS frm HAZARD MINORS The anti-climax : the place was kinda small in space :D so the feet people din have much space to work their legs. BUT, they did SO awesome, the birthday girl REQUESTED another round, this time with the other members of Hazard Minors performing. Amoeba'r has a ban on their DJ against techno, trance, and house. For the first 9 mins ever, they played techno jus so the dudes could get their act on.The girls loved it, judging frm the screams. People watched. People yelled. For the FIRST TIME EVER, AMOEBA'R WAS HAPPENIN.
The shufflas & the birthday girl, and miscellaneous. I'm so damn sorry to the dude to the left :D accidentally. I couldn't move back alr.. ***THAT, was Saturday. Everyone had fun :D TODAY, was at Ollie's house for cake wit her n family :))
Ollie and her dogie, Princesssss~~ *in Ollie's tone*SOOO cute. and she has 2 cakes today. One from we-know-who, and another frm family :) <3AND, one has Snoopy on it AGAIN :Dlolsss~~HAPPY BIRTHDAY OLLIIEEEEE!!~!~!~!!!
May God always bless your family and you. May everything pass smoothly but memorably for you, as your strength renders negativity positively. May you have everything good in life because you deserve it. May you have all the joy in the world, for all the joy u have given family n frens~~

LOVE, JILLIAN





( Jillian's post )

11.48PM; but i don't want to sleep yet, because then it'll make tonight another night i cry myself to sleep.

A doctor can't heal himself. Neither can a priest confess himself. Sometimes we are the smartest people in the whole damn world. Until we come to ourselves. Because wad we say isn't jus philosophy, isn't jus direction, isn't theory that we wrote and realise -- EVERYTHING WE SAY THAT STOPS OTHERS' TEARS IS JUST COMFORT. That's why, it doesn't matter what you say, u will cry harder than anyone else u wiped tears for.

I jus spoke to him.


' " EfeMe®tz™ - h s u y en (F) when eternity ends. i'll be sure to see u again. dat way, eternity is just a wait. says:

sumtimes we find good ppl

' " EfeMe®tz™ - h s u y en (F) when eternity ends. i'll be sure to see u again. dat way, eternity is just a wait. says:

but not the right one

HE㲙 says:

if i end up with u probably u cant tahan me

Then the conversation went on.

He told me all the good things about her.

Imagining trying to be everything good in one person's eyes. And they go on in completely love mode about sumone else. Realising he's seen sumone else wen all the while u wer standing naked on the hill waving a flag with a heart on it. S'not me. It will never be me. Not now, not ever.

It didn't occur to me that me calling him everynight ..jus to find out if he's eaten, jus to make sure he's fine, jus to make sure he has sumone to talk to if he has no one.. even if he does, show him i will be der no matter no matter what rain or blood comes. .. i didn't realise, that even dat showed him i MAY NOT BE ABLE TO HANDLE HIM IF HE'S COLD , QUIET , OR NOT CARING SUMTIMES which he reasoned, was "lucky" for me that i din end up with him cous i'd never be able to tahan him..

Maybe it was my imagination, but it seemed like everything about her was the opposite of me, and ...yeah, yeah. I felt like he was indirectly, showing me exactly that point.

I'm the opposite.

"She's sumone I want".

"SHE'S SUMONE I WANT".

YOU... you, will... NEVER, NEVER KNOW, how that CUT through my heart till i felt blood all over me although it's spposed to be on the inside.

If you think about the fact that he knows I want to be the one he wants..

and says that..

it means " JILLIAN, UR NOT. THE ONE I WANT. UR NOT LIKE HER. I DON'T WANT YOU."

That was wen the tears came pouring.

I noe it's unfair i'm saying this. I noe. I noe i noe it's VERY unfair i'm saying this :- BECAUSE i have a bf now, and BECAUSE ...i promised myself i left it behind.

Let go, Jillian.

LET, GO.

Let go. let go. let go. let go. let go. let go. let go. let go. let go. let go. let go. MOVE, because he's pushing you anyway.

I waited 3? 4? years? every damn night i missed him so, i cried myself to sleep. So much so to the point wher the tears don't come out on the outside, that u start crying on the inside cous ur eyes can't take it and ur heart can't take it, and u cry urself to sleep every nite whichever way it is til u can't tell the difference anymore.

AND now he ends up with a girl with the same NAME as me. Similar, at least.

Kanineh.

THEN AGAIN,

he's right. He's so very right.

Because I can't name one thing good about myself anymore. I can't. I'm now officially unfriendly, undecided, dry on love, AND ...sad. Let's not forget sad.

So it's just as well there is nothing for him to possibly love.

I can jus die.

For real.

What is love when it's supposed to include unconditional affection + togetherness but i'm lacking the togetherness?

He's right.

I'M "LUCKY" i'm not with him.

because i SHOULD THINK that way.

...because change me hate me or kill me, replay the past years, HE WOULD NEVER LOVE ME ANYWAY.

I think i'm going to drown myself in Amoeba'r tmr nite and come back and blog about vertigo.

AND NOTHING ABOUT HIM.

-Jillian ever changing, ever the same- ( because wen u make a 360 degree turn u wind up on the same spot )

this is ollie's personal space and my social space, i noe. and ollie i'm sorry. but they all have access to my blog. he has access to my blog. and i can't let him see me cry cos i'm typing "ahaha" on the screen while my tears roll..





Tralalala.....Midterm starts tomorrow . And NoOooOOooo !! I havent started studying...YET !! I finished 2 chapters only but that doesnt really count .

Shytttt....Im really really exhausted . My brain lacks of oxygen . Parasitology tomorrow and Clinical Biochemistry on the following day....So fcuked up larrrrr....


And somehw , I knew it was everything I've always wanted....or at least I thought I did . But I guess I read it all wrong . At this point....I'm just sooooo lost . I dont know........I just dont.... Sighhhhsssss ~~

-Ollie-


Mummy just gt back from KL an hour ago . She suprised me with all my birthday gifts.......though my birthday is nt until a week to come . Lookie lookie.......ahahaha....

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Yeayyyyyssssss.....so happyyyyy.....weeeeeee !!! =D Love you Mummy dearie

Hmmmm....where as Daddy's throwing me a party at Amoebar next week....WEEEEEEEE !!! =D

Sigh ~~~ at the same time I'm having my mid-semester exams . Dayummm !! Everything in a week .

There's just a million gazillion things I want...ahaha...BUT I especially want my Baby to come back . #_#

-Ollie-




Today is a super sexy day, u should have woken up feeling diva.



U shud have woken up feeling happy and sexy.



Just like the gal hu's BIRTHDAY IS TODAY,



AMELIA!!! a.k.a. Amey!!

went to countdown @ barZing 2 nites ago :D

I'm sorry the first photo is a bit tilted. It may be no big deal to you, but it bothers me a lot. *breathebreathebreathe** ...it bothers me so much dat i keep scrolling up and tilting my head and squinting my eyes so dat... it LOOKS straight, and blur. But then I noe it's a lie, so i keep biting my lip and staring at it, and now i'm typing, slamming my fingers on the stupid square letter things because i'm not satisfied.

I blame it on the chair.

The seat was not flat. and straight. And stupid. So it tilted me. Stupid chair. I'm gonna slam my ass on it the next time I visit Amey there. Celaka. Now I look incompetent to take photos.

Very beautiful?

*shouts* OF COURSE, DAYMNNNNN MAYNNN, WHER U BEEN AT?!! ALL THE CHICKS AROUND US ARE HOT!! Ollie is hot too. That's why her dress is red.

SO, WHOOOOO isssss Amelia a.k.a. Amey?

My bestie is Ollie, rite? ...and Ollie has a lil sister, Steph. AND Steph has a best friend, and her best friend is Amey!!

Dat's how we are all connected.

Amey turned sweet sixteen 2 days ago :D

Amey's the type of girl who everyone loves, but who not everyone can handle. She's crazy, she's fun, and she REALLY knows how to have fun. She noes wads right and wads wrong but she doesn't care too much bout how ya wanna judge her. 'Eat ur words and shyt our ur judgement' kinda thing.

She's sexy, she ain't slutty.

She knows how to party and she loves it. She has the energy and the mood for it. She's not excessively wild, but she'll pump up ur partay.

She's not kiddy like other 16 year olds. Neither is Steph though. I think Ollie & I are lucky to know such not annoying and kiddy and good two shoes ppl.

I guess daz why we all get along well wit Amey.

WE ALL LOVE HER!!!! <3

She reminds me of her in a better way.

Good chemistry too. I say sumthing and AS CRAZY SHIT as it may be, she'll crazy along too. She's very nice to Ollie & I too. And we are.. very.. nice to her oso... I AM considered nice although i molest you, rite Amey? Shud be considered BETTER than good ah. U think my hand free to give u fun meh?

NEWAYS, Ollie, Steph, this guy ( i'm sorry i have no head or tail about who he is because for sum reason we wer jus NOT introduced *looks around at everyone around me* ) ...came n celebrated/countdowned with AMEY to her birthdayyyy!!

I told you they wer besties :)

Melissa, Ollie's sis, came down to see the birthday gal for a bit too :)

Lovin her tube. She looks seriously sexy in these kindsa tops. Plus I am obsessed with posh sweet and girly. And that top is all of dat!

"one little piece of cake, two little pieces of cake~~"

Stephee, Amey, and the dude who i SERIOUSLY dunno, i dun understand why no one introduced us. Just because I am super unfriendly to the afro dude and the other dude dun mean u can't intro us, mangs~~

I look super stoned. Amey u alcohol raped me.

cuteness^^

U drink 6 glasses of vodka, 6 glasses of wine, and THEN u trust one stupid sour VEGETABLE to HELP U OUT? -- u think those ..slices.. of yellow things can help u out after ur halfway to vertigo? HOW MUCH TRUST do u actually put in lemons anywayy?

I don't believe in eating lemons.

Obviously.

Why should I, because it defeats the whole point of me 'accidentally' drinking one extra glass.

I don't think Jack Daniel's ate lemons. I don't think Johnnie Walker ate lemons either. So if u drink Jack Daniels and Johnnie Walker, wad makes u think i'm goin to let u eat lemons if u are not Ollie ( Peter Kong will kill me for not being responsible ), or the birthday guy/girl/animal?

Lemons lemons.

I wonder who thought of it. If it's the sourness, wonder if oranges help also. Like this, instead of lemons, we can have MANDARIN oranges. ABSOLUT MANDARIN.

weeehoooo~~~~~

If you think they are sexy, I dare you to scream as sharp and as loud as u can and i hope ur mum hears u from the kitchen.

Amey is damnnnn tall for her age.

But then Ollie & I are short for our age.

So yeah.

"i got two same fingers".

"jyeaaaaa babeeee".

"which one nicer?"

HAPPY SWEETEST SIXTEEN, AMEY!!!

We had a lot of fun.

I think I was super rude to the dude nx to me.

He sat down and saw me checkin out his drink, so he smiled.

I looked at him and away.

Then Ollie leaned over and told me to stop being rude and unfriendly.

=/

Aww..

BUT WE ALL HAD FUNNNNN!!!~~~~

teehees^^

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- jillian WROTE AND EDITED THIS BLOG SO SHE WANTS TO SIGN OFF VERY BIG BECAUSE SHE FEELS LIKE IT TODAY-

Sunday, December 2, 2007

[ 9:10 PM ]

Went to watch this movie in the afternoon with mummy just nw . I love it I love it I love it !!!! I just love walt disney movies .

Giselle played by Amy Adams is the Princess who lives in the blissful animated world of Andalasia where magical beings frolic freely , animals are talkative companions and musical interludes punctuate in most of the conversations . It's pretty hilarious .

Where as Robert Phillip played by Patrick Dempsey (McDreamy from Grey's Anatomy) is a divorce lawyer who is serious and doesnt believe in Giselle's gushing happily-ever-after and true love's first kiss .

Yupppssss....the movie was great so check it out if I'm nt toooo late previewing it again . Haha...

Newaysssss.....I cant believe I lost so much weight in just 3 days . And Nooooo !!! It's nt becz I'm on a diet . I just havent been eating the way I always have been....as in like almost 7 times a day . Yuppp...extremely retarded !!! I have Gastritis !!!!!!!! That's soooooo tragic . Arghhh....It actually means that I have inflamation of the stomach . It's prolly more to the chronic phase becz the pain is pretty much dull and I tent to lose my appetite with a feeling of fullness after several bites of food .

This meansssss.......I have to cut down on laksa for a while....*sob sob* . Dayummm....aint gonna be having laksa for a pretty long time mates . Hahahaha.....I hate this I hate this I HATE THISSSS !!!! Sigh ~~~ Oh well , am on medication for a week . Hope I'll gt better like A.S.A.P *bimbo twisting her hair* . I soooo totally want laksaaaaaaaa.......

Also , my condolences to the family of Ah Hao and Ah Sian .

We all will truly miss you guys . Like what Jill said , one day ur here.....talking , laughing , crapping ard....and next , ur gone . =(

Absence and death are the same , only that in death there is no suffering . We cant fight fate , death or whatever God has planned for each and everyone of us . For all I noe , they were both amazing and kind hearted ppl and I guess that's prolly why God wanted them back so they wont have to suffer living in this world where evil is everywhere .

Ah Hao , u were a really great person and u do look like Rain....a lot like him . Hahaha . And it's sad that u had to leave so soon . I may nt noe u that well , but deep inside I feel a sense of emptiness and deep sorrow to have lost a great friend like u .

May they rest in peace and have eternal life .

-Ollie-

talk the talk :D