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Christmas is coming ~~

2007-12-22T15:29:00.000+08:00

Happy tang yuen everybody . Ermm....it's some chinese festival today . I guess u can call it a festival . I'm nt really familiar with it but I eat all these freaking rice balls every end of the year .
Soooo , I guess it's nt gonna rain on Chinese New Year .

*Looks out of window* . Owwhhhss wait !!! The sky is rather dark nw . Oh well , it just might . Neways , grandma told me that if it rains today , CNY will definitely rain . Or is it the other way round ? As in vice versa ? Oppsiee daisiiee...cant remember . Hehehess

Tang yuen . Yum yum ~~

Newaysssssss......Christmas is coming . And I sooooo cant wait . I luffit I luffit I LUFFIT !!!!

Really cute pug ~~ Owsss....*heart melts* ~~ so the cuteness

Annnnndddddddd.....I would like to THANK everyone for the Birthday wishes and all the lovely pressies . I love it !! And THANKSSSSS Jill , for all the great suprises last saturday . I had a blast . It was awesome .

Oritessss nw ~~ Merry Christmas to all and to all a Happy New Year .

-Ollie-

THE AWESOMEST HOTTEST SEXIEST PARTY EVER.

2007-12-18T22:48:00.000+08:00

♥HAPPY DAPPY SEXY WHAMMY YUMMY BIRTHDAY OLLIE KUNG!!!♥

Olivia Kung a.k.a. Ollie, Ollie Dollie, Rollie Pollie Olie, and all your other itty bitty love names turns SEXY 19 TODAY [[ 18th December 2007 ]].***IF you dunno who Ollie is, ...*breathes in with wide open eyes nostrils and mouth* i dunno wad u to do with u or wad u are doin in this blog. Cous it's hers ( and mine ). Ollie is a social butterfly whose uncommon beauty tattoos itself in like.. nearly every guy's mind. And heart. Anything else and we dun need to noe. I heard horny ppl need rehab too. Never steps into a club wifout being noticed. Never leaves a club wifout at least one heart ( or guy, but i'm assuming she's easy to like because SHE IS to most people ), ....and mannnngsss, i think I saw this comment before : "WHEN SHE SWAYS, YOU JUST GET LOST IN IT". WOOHOO~~ AND TODAYYY, we have pics frm Amoeba'r to PROVE IT!! :D lollees :D but that's later, hold on to ur panties..She's daddy's lil girl and we love her for it. She's mummy's spoilt brat and she loves her for it. She's a hot girl and I think Kuching's lucky to have her, if not i am forced to believe that the white cat at Padungan der is the sexiest icon around. She doesn't drink a lot. But she noes how to have fun. AND she's so strong she makes fables look like bubbles. LALALALA~~ thennn, celebrated her 19th birthday last Saturday @ Amoeba'r, travilion with 40 odd ( as in '+', not weird ) people, 3 crates of beer, and an Absolut Pear.

*// P h o t o e s //*
Seeme*Sherlyn*Mich*Ollie** THE GIRLS' PHOTO.
The captions ain't serious. If not i'm dead.Stevie & Ollie!

Girls : *arrive @ party lookin hawt to the max*Ollie : *screams* AAAAAHHHH!!! *sticks hands out in hugging gesture*Girls : *screams back in unison* OLLIIEEEEE!!!Ollie : MA BITCHESSSSS!!! *screams another time jus for effects* *BIG SEXY HUG*

- frm left : Lily, Doreen, Ollie, Karen -Mmmm.. i dun talk to Karen a lot, but I think we have the same taste in guys... we like bad boys. I met all of them duringggg.. *thinks* first nite out at The Office wit her buddies :D
I think she was half out of the house by the time the photo was taken. With her very trademark 'leg be poppin' pose :D AND Karen~~ wheee~~ pretty gals~~
Jian ( cousin ), Ollie, and Bert (bro). Hu's bro? -- i dunno~~ both of em i guesssss... not my DNA, but blood and alcohol~~
US ** Stevie / Jillie / Patrina / Phoebe / Steffi / Ollie :D
WE HAVE SEXYTIME TOGETHAGETHA cous we louveeeee each otherrrr!!
WE LOVE THE BIRTHDAY GIRL.She's not JUST darling. She's a darling cous she's been a darling to each and every one of us. Not jus cous she's hot enuf to be called darling, hamsapness. Yes, by this time her mind must have stopped recording wad was happening becos the alcohol made it do dat dat dat~~

AWWWW~~ isn't the cake cuteeeee? AHHAHA :D like Ollie. SHE LOVES SNOOPY. The cake (s)creams it all~~ Teeheesssss^^ Thanks to mummy ( Ollie's ) for picking the cake to surprise Ollie wen I was runnin late! :)))
Seriously, i dunno hu's under der. But he took it off to talk for a while becos i jumped wen he jus banged into me and sed "birthday girl birthday girl". He's funny.
Steffi : EYHHH!!! WE HAVEN'T TAKE PHO,TO, U NOEEEEEEE??Jill : yeaaaaaa~~ come come, we take!!Steffi : THE OFFICIAL PHOTOOO U NOEEEE, WE DUN HAVE!Jill : *OMG* yeaaaa!!! let's take let's TAKE!! :D hence, THE OFFICIAL PHOTO : Steffi ( official blog model ) & Jillie ( blog half owner )
*btw, the part of my hair dat reaches the boobs is an extension I got on that day :D hehehe :D 38 cm. HAPPY!**

The surprise performance : SHUFFLERS frm HAZARD MINORS The anti-climax : the place was kinda small in space :D so the feet people din have much space to work their legs. BUT, they did SO awesome, the birthday girl REQUESTED another round, this time with the other members of Hazard Minors performing. Amoeba'r has a ban on their DJ against techno, trance, and house. For the first 9 mins ever, they played techno jus so the dudes could get their act on.The girls loved it, judging frm the screams. People watched. People yelled. For the FIRST TIME EVER, AMOEBA'R WAS HAPPENIN.
The shufflas & the birthday girl, and miscellaneous. I'm so damn sorry to the dude to the left :D accidentally. I couldn't move back alr.. ***THAT, was Saturday. Everyone had fun :D TODAY, was at Ollie's house for cake wit her n family :))
Ollie and her dogie, Princesssss~~ *in Ollie's tone*SOOO cute. and she has 2 cakes today. One from we-know-who, and another frm family :) <3AND, one has Snoopy on it AGAIN :Dlolsss~~HAPPY BIRTHDAY OLLIIEEEEE!!~!~!~!!!
May God always bless your family and you. May everything pass smoothly but memorably for you, as your strength renders negativity positively. May you have everything good in life because you deserve it. May you have all the joy in the world, for all the joy u have given family n frens~~

LOVE, JILLIAN

dun ask me for a title.

2007-12-14T23:48:00.000+08:00

( Jillian's post )

11.48PM; but i don't want to sleep yet, because then it'll make tonight another night i cry myself to sleep.

A doctor can't heal himself. Neither can a priest confess himself. Sometimes we are the smartest people in the whole damn world. Until we come to ourselves. Because wad we say isn't jus philosophy, isn't jus direction, isn't theory that we wrote and realise -- EVERYTHING WE SAY THAT STOPS OTHERS' TEARS IS JUST COMFORT. That's why, it doesn't matter what you say, u will cry harder than anyone else u wiped tears for.

I jus spoke to him.

' " EfeMe®tz™ - h s u y en (F) when eternity ends. i'll be sure to see u again. dat way, eternity is just a wait. says:

sumtimes we find good ppl

' " EfeMe®tz™ - h s u y en (F) when eternity ends. i'll be sure to see u again. dat way, eternity is just a wait. says:

but not the right one

HE㲙 says:

if i end up with u probably u cant tahan me

Then the conversation went on.

He told me all the good things about her.

Imagining trying to be everything good in one person's eyes. And they go on in completely love mode about sumone else. Realising he's seen sumone else wen all the while u wer standing naked on the hill waving a flag with a heart on it. S'not me. It will never be me. Not now, not ever.

It didn't occur to me that me calling him everynight ..jus to find out if he's eaten, jus to make sure he's fine, jus to make sure he has sumone to talk to if he has no one.. even if he does, show him i will be der no matter no matter what rain or blood comes. .. i didn't realise, that even dat showed him i MAY NOT BE ABLE TO HANDLE HIM IF HE'S COLD , QUIET , OR NOT CARING SUMTIMES which he reasoned, was "lucky" for me that i din end up with him cous i'd never be able to tahan him..

Maybe it was my imagination, but it seemed like everything about her was the opposite of me, and ...yeah, yeah. I felt like he was indirectly, showing me exactly that point.

I'm the opposite.

"She's sumone I want".

"SHE'S SUMONE I WANT".

YOU... you, will... NEVER, NEVER KNOW, how that CUT through my heart till i felt blood all over me although it's spposed to be on the inside.

If you think about the fact that he knows I want to be the one he wants..

and says that..

it means " JILLIAN, UR NOT. THE ONE I WANT. UR NOT LIKE HER. I DON'T WANT YOU."

That was wen the tears came pouring.

I noe it's unfair i'm saying this. I noe. I noe i noe it's VERY unfair i'm saying this :- BECAUSE i have a bf now, and BECAUSE ...i promised myself i left it behind.

Let go, Jillian.

LET, GO.

Let go. let go. let go. let go. let go. let go. let go. let go. let go. let go. let go. MOVE, because he's pushing you anyway.

I waited 3? 4? years? every damn night i missed him so, i cried myself to sleep. So much so to the point wher the tears don't come out on the outside, that u start crying on the inside cous ur eyes can't take it and ur heart can't take it, and u cry urself to sleep every nite whichever way it is til u can't tell the difference anymore.

AND now he ends up with a girl with the same NAME as me. Similar, at least.

Kanineh.

THEN AGAIN,

he's right. He's so very right.

Because I can't name one thing good about myself anymore. I can't. I'm now officially unfriendly, undecided, dry on love, AND ...sad. Let's not forget sad.

So it's just as well there is nothing for him to possibly love.

I can jus die.

For real.

What is love when it's supposed to include unconditional affection + togetherness but i'm lacking the togetherness?

He's right.

I'M "LUCKY" i'm not with him.

because i SHOULD THINK that way.

...because change me hate me or kill me, replay the past years, HE WOULD NEVER LOVE ME ANYWAY.

I think i'm going to drown myself in Amoeba'r tmr nite and come back and blog about vertigo.

AND NOTHING ABOUT HIM.

-Jillian ever changing, ever the same- ( because wen u make a 360 degree turn u wind up on the same spot )

this is ollie's personal space and my social space, i noe. and ollie i'm sorry. but they all have access to my blog. he has access to my blog. and i can't let him see me cry cos i'm typing "ahaha" on the screen while my tears roll..

2007-12-12T08:43:00.000+08:00

Tralalala.....Midterm starts tomorrow . And NoOooOOooo !! I havent started studying...YET !! I finished 2 chapters only but that doesnt really count .

Shytttt....Im really really exhausted . My brain lacks of oxygen . Parasitology tomorrow and Clinical Biochemistry on the following day....So fcuked up larrrrr....

And somehw , I knew it was everything I've always wanted....or at least I thought I did . But I guess I read it all wrong . At this point....I'm just sooooo lost . I dont know........I just dont.... Sighhhhsssss ~~

-Ollie-

2007-12-09T21:43:00.000+08:00

Mummy just gt back from KL an hour ago . She suprised me with all my birthday gifts.......though my birthday is nt until a week to come . Lookie lookie.......ahahaha....

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Yeayyyyyssssss.....so happyyyyy.....weeeeeee !!! =D Love you Mummy dearie

Hmmmm....where as Daddy's throwing me a party at Amoebar next week....WEEEEEEEE !!! =D

Sigh ~~~ at the same time I'm having my mid-semester exams . Dayummm !! Everything in a week .

There's just a million gazillion things I want...ahaha...BUT I especially want my Baby to come back . #_#

-Ollie-

Happy Sweet Sixteen Amey!!~~

2007-12-07T19:30:00.000+08:00

Today is a super sexy day, u should have woken up feeling diva.

U shud have woken up feeling happy and sexy.

Just like the gal hu's BIRTHDAY IS TODAY,

AMELIA!!! a.k.a. Amey!!

went to countdown @ barZing 2 nites ago :D

I'm sorry the first photo is a bit tilted. It may be no big deal to you, but it bothers me a lot. *breathebreathebreathe** ...it bothers me so much dat i keep scrolling up and tilting my head and squinting my eyes so dat... it LOOKS straight, and blur. But then I noe it's a lie, so i keep biting my lip and staring at it, and now i'm typing, slamming my fingers on the stupid square letter things because i'm not satisfied.

I blame it on the chair.

The seat was not flat. and straight. And stupid. So it tilted me. Stupid chair. I'm gonna slam my ass on it the next time I visit Amey there. Celaka. Now I look incompetent to take photos.

Very beautiful?

*shouts* OF COURSE, DAYMNNNNN MAYNNN, WHER U BEEN AT?!! ALL THE CHICKS AROUND US ARE HOT!! Ollie is hot too. That's why her dress is red.

SO, WHOOOOO isssss Amelia a.k.a. Amey?

My bestie is Ollie, rite? ...and Ollie has a lil sister, Steph. AND Steph has a best friend, and her best friend is Amey!!

Dat's how we are all connected.

Amey turned sweet sixteen 2 days ago :D

Amey's the type of girl who everyone loves, but who not everyone can handle. She's crazy, she's fun, and she REALLY knows how to have fun. She noes wads right and wads wrong but she doesn't care too much bout how ya wanna judge her. 'Eat ur words and shyt our ur judgement' kinda thing.

She's sexy, she ain't slutty.

She knows how to party and she loves it. She has the energy and the mood for it. She's not excessively wild, but she'll pump up ur partay.

She's not kiddy like other 16 year olds. Neither is Steph though. I think Ollie & I are lucky to know such not annoying and kiddy and good two shoes ppl.

I guess daz why we all get along well wit Amey.

WE ALL LOVE HER!!!! <3

She reminds me of her in a better way.

Good chemistry too. I say sumthing and AS CRAZY SHIT as it may be, she'll crazy along too. She's very nice to Ollie & I too. And we are.. very.. nice to her oso... I AM considered nice although i molest you, rite Amey? Shud be considered BETTER than good ah. U think my hand free to give u fun meh?

NEWAYS, Ollie, Steph, this guy ( i'm sorry i have no head or tail about who he is because for sum reason we wer jus NOT introduced *looks around at everyone around me* ) ...came n celebrated/countdowned with AMEY to her birthdayyyy!!

I told you they wer besties :)

Melissa, Ollie's sis, came down to see the birthday gal for a bit too :)

Lovin her tube. She looks seriously sexy in these kindsa tops. Plus I am obsessed with posh sweet and girly. And that top is all of dat!

"one little piece of cake, two little pieces of cake~~"

Stephee, Amey, and the dude who i SERIOUSLY dunno, i dun understand why no one introduced us. Just because I am super unfriendly to the afro dude and the other dude dun mean u can't intro us, mangs~~

I look super stoned. Amey u alcohol raped me.

cuteness^^

U drink 6 glasses of vodka, 6 glasses of wine, and THEN u trust one stupid sour VEGETABLE to HELP U OUT? -- u think those ..slices.. of yellow things can help u out after ur halfway to vertigo? HOW MUCH TRUST do u actually put in lemons anywayy?

I don't believe in eating lemons.

Obviously.

Why should I, because it defeats the whole point of me 'accidentally' drinking one extra glass.

I don't think Jack Daniel's ate lemons. I don't think Johnnie Walker ate lemons either. So if u drink Jack Daniels and Johnnie Walker, wad makes u think i'm goin to let u eat lemons if u are not Ollie ( Peter Kong will kill me for not being responsible ), or the birthday guy/girl/animal?

Lemons lemons.

I wonder who thought of it. If it's the sourness, wonder if oranges help also. Like this, instead of lemons, we can have MANDARIN oranges. ABSOLUT MANDARIN.

weeehoooo~~~~~

If you think they are sexy, I dare you to scream as sharp and as loud as u can and i hope ur mum hears u from the kitchen.

Amey is damnnnn tall for her age.

But then Ollie & I are short for our age.

So yeah.

"i got two same fingers".

"jyeaaaaa babeeee".

"which one nicer?"

HAPPY SWEETEST SIXTEEN, AMEY!!!

We had a lot of fun.

I think I was super rude to the dude nx to me.

He sat down and saw me checkin out his drink, so he smiled.

I looked at him and away.

Then Ollie leaned over and told me to stop being rude and unfriendly.

Aww..

BUT WE ALL HAD FUNNNNN!!!~~~~

teehees^^

[ For more/extra/other pics n stuff, see THIS (click) ]

- jillian WROTE AND EDITED THIS BLOG SO SHE WANTS TO SIGN OFF VERY BIG BECAUSE SHE FEELS LIKE IT TODAY-

2007-12-02T21:10:00.000+08:00

Went to watch this movie in the afternoon with mummy just nw . I love it I love it I love it !!!! I just love walt disney movies .

Giselle played by Amy Adams is the Princess who lives in the blissful animated world of Andalasia where magical beings frolic freely , animals are talkative companions and musical interludes punctuate in most of the conversations . It's pretty hilarious .

Where as Robert Phillip played by Patrick Dempsey (McDreamy from Grey's Anatomy) is a divorce lawyer who is serious and doesnt believe in Giselle's gushing happily-ever-after and true love's first kiss .

Yupppssss....the movie was great so check it out if I'm nt toooo late previewing it again . Haha...

Newaysssss.....I cant believe I lost so much weight in just 3 days . And Nooooo !!! It's nt becz I'm on a diet . I just havent been eating the way I always have been....as in like almost 7 times a day . Yuppp...extremely retarded !!! I have Gastritis !!!!!!!! That's soooooo tragic . Arghhh....It actually means that I have inflamation of the stomach . It's prolly more to the chronic phase becz the pain is pretty much dull and I tent to lose my appetite with a feeling of fullness after several bites of food .

This meansssss.......I have to cut down on laksa for a while....*sob sob* . Dayummm....aint gonna be having laksa for a pretty long time mates . Hahahaha.....I hate this I hate this I HATE THISSSS !!!! Sigh ~~~ Oh well , am on medication for a week . Hope I'll gt better like A.S.A.P *bimbo twisting her hair* . I soooo totally want laksaaaaaaaa.......

Also , my condolences to the family of Ah Hao and Ah Sian .

We all will truly miss you guys . Like what Jill said , one day ur here.....talking , laughing , crapping ard....and next , ur gone . =(

Absence and death are the same , only that in death there is no suffering . We cant fight fate , death or whatever God has planned for each and everyone of us . For all I noe , they were both amazing and kind hearted ppl and I guess that's prolly why God wanted them back so they wont have to suffer living in this world where evil is everywhere .

Ah Hao , u were a really great person and u do look like Rain....a lot like him . Hahaha . And it's sad that u had to leave so soon . I may nt noe u that well , but deep inside I feel a sense of emptiness and deep sorrow to have lost a great friend like u .

May they rest in peace and have eternal life .

-Ollie-

One day you're here, next you are gone~~

2007-12-01T19:15:00.000+08:00

New season, new skin, old beginnings, new endings.

There are some losses that can never be replaced. That's what I hate. Because I always try to be 'the bigger man' in life. And it when it doesn't work out it makes me feel lousy. Like how you realise you SHOULD HAVE done something but you didnt. Like how you wish u could change things but ur in a different space and time and it's jus too lil too late.

I wish I called you earlier.

Til now the only thing I can say over n over again is "i can't believe it".

I can't believe it.

I can't believe it.

I can't believe it.

I can't believe I lost u for good. I can't believe that we laughed about all dat crazy shit and ur never gonna laugh about it with me again. I can't believe I lost you. I can't believe u will never be on the other end of the line again when I call. I can't believe ....i can't believe you are never coming back.

I can't believe i shared so much with you, and then ...you're jus not here anymore, i feel empty. I feel very very hurt. I feel lost. I feel like I need you but there's no possible way anymore. I can't call. I can't find you. I can't ...talk to you anymore. We can't laugh together anymore. I can't even laugh about it myself now.

However far I search or walk or as much as I cry I dunno where u are and I dunno if u see me o u noe I miss you very much. I miss u so so much u dunno how much it hurts me that I lost you.

Every night since Carey called, I cry before I sleep. I didn't cry last night, I drank a lot at Barzing and shot down Ollie's glass too.

I remember every night again, Ursula's party. U and dat red long sleeved shirt. I'll never see u in it again. I remember how u oways like to say "apalar u". I remember u sed u wer ugly and very very not cute. Ur so crazy. Then I told u u wer not. Remember u dunno how to talk to me the first time n u wer so quiet?

Then remember we got closer?

I was Alvin's gf but u noe I spend more time with u.

Then u felt a lil bad about it. U even thought he may be mad at u.

I miss you.
I miss you.
I miss you.

Tears keep falling, everytime I think of u. Because I will ALWAYS miss you. I'll never leave you behind okay? Because all I have is all the things we talked about, and now I can carry u in my mind and heart.

One day ur here,teaching me all the stupid crap.... u won't believe how stupid I am now. All the funny things we talked about. All the stuff we both noe. Like this i'm the only one left in the world with our secret? There's no point.

There is just no point.

I never even got to talk to u.
I never even got to say bye.
U dunno how bad ur making me cry.

I wished, after the first nite I heard it, that it was a punk. I cried so hard but i prayed so hard they were lying. I prayed so hard the next day I wake up n u'll call n laugh and call me stupid like u always do. Then my blogpost would be useless and stupid and I can delete it, laughing and crying at the same time. I prayed it was jus a joke. I prayed I heard wrong. I prayed so many ways for it to be impossible. And I woke up to more tears because it wasn't a nightmare and it wasn't a punk. N you were just not anywhere I could find anymore. I cried and I called ur name as hard as I could I'm so afraid u will not stick with me wherever u go.

U wer so close. U played with me in a way no one else noes how to. U say the funniest things onli I laugh at. U talk proper crap to me. U oways say I onli noe how to ask about food. Stupid, u oso like to eat wad. Suddenly I can never have a chance to see u gain. No matter how far I go or how hard I look. U just.. are not here anymore.

Everytime I scroll down my phone list I start crying because I know you won't pick up nemore. I noe u will never b on the other end again. I dunno if I can ever talk to u again.

I wish it never happened.

I wish it never happned.

I wish it never happened.

I'm so stupid. I wanted to call. Dat day. I jus felt like calling I dunno why. Scrolled down to ur name, but i didn't call. I wen out. I'm so stupid. So so stupid. If i called I would hear u again. I'm so damn stupid I should jus die.

All the things we talked about doesn't realli seem near now oso.

It seems far away.

I'll never get over it.

Never.

I'll never forget you.

I'll NEVER FORGET YOU.

Ah Sian i miss you.

Ah Sian i wish i could hear u again. Apalar u. Apalar me. Apalar us. REMEMBER?!

I rmr u fell into the longkang on the way home one day. Then I laughed at u. Cous u dunno wig drain is.. ahahha..

I can never laugh about it with u again rite?

All the things we talked about? It stays where it is rite? Cous ther's no one else hu will rmr it. Since ur not here with me nemore.

This sucks.

I'LL ALWAYS REMEMBER U, AH SIAN :)

Much love,
Jillian.

apalar u. dotadotadota.

Depression and anxiety

2007-11-25T14:43:00.000+08:00

One of these “special” people in my life is havin HIS BIRTHDAY TODAAYYYYYY !!!! =D =D

MY MANBITCH !! HAVE A HAPPY RETARDED BIRTHDAY , YAO .

I'm sorry it's an old pic but be grateful ur face is in it....ish ish !!! Bahahaha....let's have fun 2nite !! Yipeee yeayyy =D Goshhhh.....just remembered I'll be having my Hematology exam tomorrow.....arghhh....sigh ~~~~ Better start studying !!! Toodles ~~

-Ollie-

Happy birthday stephie ~~

2007-11-12T20:35:00.001+08:00

Dayum ~~ School's in and hols are out !!!! Nevertheless I'm happy I'm back in school . I nearly died of boredom during my one month hols except for the part where I spent tooooo much money on shopping and of cz limtehing =D . Mummy's complaining cz there isnt enough space in the cupboard , plus the amount of shoes each of us gals have . Dig the number of gals in the hse . We need more cupboards !!!!! Yet Daddy says we need to gv our clothes and shoes away . This calls for charity work . High time I start sorting out and gving them to the poor and the needy . Yeahh...good deed !! ehehesss...

Annddd results are out by this week . Ughh !! Nerve wreaking ~~ For those of you who keep pestering me abt my results....well , dont even ask . I wouldnt tell unless my pointer's above a 3.5 which I am very doubtful ????? I'll just dig a grave yard for myself first .

Newaysss...tomorrow's Stephie's birthday . I'd like to wish my lil baby sista and on behalf of Jill.........a very Happie Dappie Burfdayy and many many years of happiness to come~~!!!!!! =D

Soooo kawaiii ~~~

May you live all the days of ur life to the fullest . The more you praise and celebrate ur life , the more there is in life to celebrate . And girl , you are never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream . Soooo cheer up and have a very Happy Sweet 16th Birthday !!!

*Hugsss and Kisses*

-Ollie-

Ah How and the barenaked Jill

2007-10-29T01:32:00.000+08:00

Hmmm...so Ah How came back last week . Was it last Wednesday that we went out ??? *thinks* .....yeah , if I'm nt mistaken it was last Wednesday . Phoebe , How and I thought of hanging out sooooo we decided The Junk . Again...Phoebs and I had to crack our heads thinking of a place to hang out . I really hate that . It happens everytime we're out . Couldnt think of a place sooooo...The Junk it is !!!

How's expresso

My chocoholic crush and Phoebe's oreo crush *slurps*

The ever-so-pretty Phoebsss

Later after sending Phoebs home , Arnold called me cz he's back here as well . And I've been promising him I'll go out with him but I hadnt had the time . So we went out . Arnold and I againnnn cudnt think of a place to go sooooo we headed to Hilton first cz I really needed the loo desperately . And we thought "alang-alang just hang out in Caffecino lar" . Hung out till 1 smth then headed home .

2 days ago --> Sunday

Ah How was going back to KL (he's back ord) so I told him I'll meet him up before he leaves .

While waiting for his flight , we chilled at Starbucks .

Some pics before he left .

My choco cream chip and Steph's choco cream

Dig this ~~ woooshh.....
I'm really sorry but I cant help feeling disgusted looking at How's drink . It looks like moss growing all over his cup . And this is green tea latte . Think twice before ordering yeah ? It's grossssssss.....like ewww !! *bimbotically*

No offence How.....bahahha....

Me , Jill and How

Steph , Me and How

Ohyaaa....FYI...Jill keeps calling me a mum . I seriously dont gt this chick . Well , prolly cz I'm the only one who's pretty much obeying rules (INCONSISTANT though) and teaching them nt to always drink alcohol . It's bad for ur health kids...tooooo much alkie is bad for ur health . It causes high uric acid and this will lead to gout . Soooooo....drink more plain water...especially you Jillie the beanie winnie . That goes for u too Steph...ughhh !! Stubborn heads ~~ ahahah

Awwww....soooo the cuteness !! They wanted this soooo badly but.....I didnt wanna buy it for them . As they say....I'm the strict one . Well......they didnt exactly say that but I assumed they thought I was . Like wateva !!!!! ~~

Newaysss...come back this December okay How !!! You better !!! No pressure though . I'm just expecting Dior Addict 2 . Waitt !! Mariah Carey also launched her new perfume 'M' a few weeks go . That'll do too . Bahahaha....*kidding*

This is sooo random ~~

We went to choice mall for.......ermmm...for....I dont really noe the purpose but yeah...we went there . ahaha...

And Steph and I thought the weenies were really corrupting images . Bahahaha....

They werent exacltly that corrupting but we were just making fun of it...and that wasnt good at all . And JILL kept complaining that she should put a box over her head . Again...this is sooo random . Just to letcha noe that she felt really naked yesterday cz she felt soooo bare and exposed . Gt the picture ??????????

Well it's becz she wasnt using any makeup....weird girl huh ? ahahahaha...cant survive without make up the way I cant without my tea..ahaha....and she was practically about to sue herself for wearing her specs . Hey , you can gt urself to sue ur ownself !!! Bahahaha...*NUTS*

P/S Jill...hurry up with last saturday's post liawwwww ~~

-Ollie-

Hairspray

2007-10-21T19:40:00.000+08:00

Just gt back from the movies . Dayumm !! Hairspray was awesome yao ~~~

Like for real . It's smth similar to the movie Grease....daddy's all time favourite . If you are into musical movies , you should definately check this one out .

I loveeee Michelle Pfeiffer in this movie . She was definately hot stuff *psssst* . She played a really hot sexy mama in the movie and she was like what ?? Havin a bitch fit the whole time ?? She was awesome !! I like her and she didnt look her age at all .

Owww...and I especially didnt gt why John Travolta had to play Tracie's mum ??? I mean , he was like good looking , cool and macho the nacho in Grease and he had to a play a woman in this movie . Sheesh mangs !! Cant they find an exact woman that size ? Freaked me out but I laughed a lot . ~~She~~ He was funny . Tickled my funny bone .

Edna Turnblad

My Goattt !!!! But I'll say , he gts all the credit for wearing purple . Muahaha....

Neways , guess who was I soooo freaking attracted to ?

Link Larkin

Yeshhh Yeeesshhhhh.....It's him...Zac Efron . The dude who plays Troy in High School Musical !!! Yupppsss...he's soooo bloody hot man !!! And he knows howta sing and dance . Annnndddd...he's the only guy I'd say rocks wearing skinny cut pants . ahahha...yesh...shoot me in the head for saying that . But hey , it's the 60's...skinny cut pants for guys were the trends at that time .

But I especially love their hairdos . It's sooo Christina Aguilera back to basics .

Ahhhhhhhh *heart melts....faints*

I know rite ??? HOT STUFF ~~

His eyes are soooo McDreamy ~~ He is nt Orlando Bloom or Andy Roddick (I loveeee them) but he sure can be on top of this hottie list . I'm happy nw that he's single but....okay okay *dream on Ollie* Bahahahhaa...

Neways , the movie was great . It's smth like broadway , so have a great time watching it if I'm nt toooo late previewing the movie . Bahahaha....toodles ~~

-Ollie-

Wheeee~~~

2007-10-12T16:59:00.001+08:00

Hie.

Jillian here.

Really...dun appreciate the mess up of blog layout codes. This is not due to Ollie's blind erasing and html code illiteracy.

It's really nice if like you pick a more physical space to beat the butt hairs off sumone else. This is like "hey jillian, or ollie ah. can i stop by ur house for a while? i need to like fight and may need to mess up things like ur house codes or smth".

u see, it doesn't make sense.

THUS, this blog is temporarily under reconstruction.

I hope the crazy mad ones are like reading this and feeling sorry because the page is not purple and white anymore.

I hope guilt is at this moment eating up ur membraney brain like acid, burning into the rubber shyt that makes ur brains.

Jus kidding.

if u tink so.

but really, kidding.

point is, reconstructing now and this lousy piece of internet is killing me softly.

will be back with new really happy posts soon.

thanks. the chatbox is gonna b the las thing up, in case i do it first and then smth happens and ollie keng-ly removes the whole lot of codes that has nth to do with it, thus i need to start over again even bfore i touch the finish line.

see yous guys.

LO0VEEEE from Ollie and I, but less from me due to me having to make this page again.

Secret Garden

2007-10-11T12:06:00.000+08:00

Last nite , Gerd asked me out and he also asked me to decide a place . I majorly craved for my choco ice-blended and decided Caffecino in Hilton but thn......Phoebs was seriously famish as in hungry the mungry .

Neways , Daddy's back home and he didnt really want me to drive out so Lex picked me up and we went round Kuching looking for food .

We thought of :
1. Bella Italia but thn we're already in town and he aint driving back to BDC no more .
2. Thn I wanted Caffecino but Phoebs was ultimately hungry...so that's out as well .
3. We thought of Tao...yeaysss... *choco ice-blended* . But thn Phoebs wanted real solid food and I started feeling hungry too . So out again .
4. Michelle and Albert...but thn it's closed .
5. Richmond.....but thn there's no seat .
6. Exza....but thn again....IT'S CLOSED !! WTH !!! These cafe taukes were seriously killing me to the freaking max . ugh !! *shoves palm into face bimbotically*
7. Thn we saw this new place....Secret Garden . *Kia liaw...betahan ar...I wanna eat ord*

We gt out of the car and thought....

Phoebs : Eysss...this place looks soooo familiar
Ollie : I noe rite...
Phoebs : Where's Room 205 d ?? *started panicking cz it's her favourite place*
Ollie : I think it's near The Office lar...
Lex : No !??!! But then...it's opposite Memories rite ?
Ollie & Phoebs : Yaalar hoh ??? NOOOOOO !!!!!!!! *screamed with mouth wide open*

We were so hungry we couldnt care less whether it was once Room 205 or even a strip club . So we went in .

So there was Lex my cous , Phoebs , Gerd , Lydia , Peterus , Bengs and I

My choco ice-blended , Phoeb's oreo ice-blended and Lex's pineapple juice .

Ours . Phoebs and I

We had chicky chop . Wasnt bad nor was it great . It was nice...good...nt bad for supper though .

Phoebe and I

And we even gt 10% off as in discount . I double checked the bill outa curiosity . Ahaha...we gt 10% off food...nt bad . It's prolly cz they just opened .

Us...

Next stop : Phoebe wanted to check out Lake Park . But thn once again.....it's closed !!! Ughh !! These peeps arrr...wait !! I'm gonna say no more *hot on fire d*

Since everywhere is closed *sarcastically saying it* ....Phoebs decided to take pics . So I became their photographer . It was so much fun . And it was drizzling too . So we took pics under the rain . Hw romantic it is....for them nia okay ??? Nt me !!!! I felt like the small pry . SOOOO nt cool...ugh ! *in a bimbo tone* *laughs*

Awwwww ~~ so sweet they could gv me diabetes . Cousin and cousin-in-law . Welcome to the family Phoebe....Bahaha...

Yup...cousin-in-laws camwhoring...ahaahaha...

Thn it started to rain heavily . Man !! I think God doesnt want us taking pics in Reservoir Park anymore so we headed home instead....cz we couldnt think of another place to go .

That's it for last nite . Going to Kaya & Toast pretty soon . As usual , afternoon routine for TEA !! Nw I'm on holidays , I'll prolly be there every afternoon . Fun nite once again....happy happy HAPPY . Tralalala ~~

-Ollie-

Damai trip

2007-10-09T11:43:00.000+08:00

School's out and holiday's in . WooHoo !!!

So , our group of friends decided to have a 2 days one nite trip to Damai Beach just to relax , free our minds and of course to have fun ~~

The 16 of us set out after lunch and reached Damai at roughly about 1.40 ?? I cant really remember but it was definately before 2 pm .

I havent been up to Damai in like a really long time and it has changed . *scratches head...thinks hard*....Or has it owez been like that ??? Sheesh mangs ! For a minute I just cant seem to remember hw Damai looks like . Oh my GOAT !!!! *short term memory*

Yeah , so we rented a chalet to fit the 16 of us . Stella brought up her steamboat untensils , Benjamin brought his PA system and speakers up so we can rock the wooden chalet and Edison brought his laptop . The rest of us ??? We brought FOOD !!! Junk food especially . LOTS & LOTSAVIT to munch .

Alice & Seeme jumping and dancing on the bed

At 3 , we decided to head to the beach . Guess what ? This is sooo tragic , the one most important outfit I left out...as in forgotten to bring...as in I guess I do have short term memory *touches wood* was my......BIKINI !!! Arrghhh...yeahlar...I did last minute packing . My fault lar...my fault !! *rolls eyes 180 degrees and shoved head into the pillow*

It was burning hot...like seriously hot . But then it was b.e.a.u.tiful . We stood at the rocks listening to the faint sounds of waves crashing asshore *eyes closed...imagining , dreaming , wondering , fantasizing* .... *opened eyes* and stared motionless at the brownish moss green sea *=S potong stim* . Man ! Kuching's beach is like super nt pretty as in colour wise . But the view was . It captivated me somehw . =D

Lex my cuzzie came up too.....but on a day trip .

Seeme and I.... -besties-

Awww~~ Lynn did this for me . Hw sweet of her . Ehehess... -Princess Olie-

Us on the beach...

Lynn later asked me if she could burry me under the sand . I was a bit reluctant becz I didnt wanna fill my clothes with sand . *Pissed*...didnt bring BIKINI .

But then I allowed them to make me fins . So...they made me a lil mermaid .

Them on their process of turning my legs into fins .

Drum rolls please !!!!!! *background music*

O my Gaaa... *imitates Jessica Simpson* .... I have fins .

WahLaaaa.....their creation . Ollie the mermaid . I should become a Disney character or smth . "Ollie the lil mermaid" . Bahaha... *under the sea...under the sea*

I went back to the chalet ard 5.40 pm . My body was very heaty and I was dying cz I had no tea . I enjoyed sitting at the shore sunbathing though . I noe rite ? Makes no sense and dollars . I'm nt angmo but thn I like to sunbathe . Well , couldnt be bothered turning dark neither could I help it . I just love the sun . Weird Ollie~~

Owhss...I went really crazy in the chalet .
1. I was freezing cold to the max with my wet clothes on .
2. Couldnt take waiting for the water to boil . I NEEDED MY TEA DESPERATELY !!!

Dson the DJ on his laptop and Alice...extremely bootylicious . But thn she also looks like she's doing joget .

Again...us dancing on the bed.... *I fell inlove with the DJ...DJ* seeme's favourite song

D'son and I...promoting our crackers .
"Eat more Jacob Crackers . Promising better bone structure for a better future . Also high in calcium" *talks in an advertising accent*
Bahhahaha...I'm just crapping ard..

Dance...dance...eat...dance.... and Winnie has just been in that chair watching her cartoons...awww ~~

So I crazily danced ard the room . Seriously !! My mates even thought of sending me to a phsyiciatric ward cz I was just soooo insane and uncontrollable .

At the same time , Chung Chan was just sooo farnie the barnie as well . He was in his swimming trunk shaking his booty . It was hilarious...it made us all laughed . I could have died laughing at the same time gasping for air . No pic of that though . Too bad .

Chung Channnnn arrrr...!! Put on a pair of pants for peeps sake~~

Later that nite , we had steamboat . Benjamin , Stella and a few others that dropped by went to Buntal to tapau food . And guess what ??? Guessie guess !!! Don't freak out okays ? I COOKED ~~ ! ! Bahahaha...

I'm nt that good at it but I somehw did a pretty good job . They said the soup was nice . Ahahaha...I'm so happy !! *smiles widely...syiok sendiri*

Yeayysss...eating what I cooked

Happily eating =)

Yum yum~~

Wait !!!!!!! Someone is missing . My gosh ! Seeme my babe...No wonder it looks awkward .

A better one to make up for the first group pic . Seeme's in it nw .

After dinner , we played cards and partied in the chalet . Neighbours came knocking on our door every nw and thn to make sure we kept it down . We were ultimately nuts as in seriously crazy...and we were absolutely loud . Bummer~~

D'son...what a poser ~~

Didnt sleep long . Woke up the next morning to have tea and again , ahemm...to camwhore . Bahaha....something we love doing .

Alice and I

Us again...never bored of posing .

All set and ready to go home . =D *thinks of sleep*

Oppssiiee..no me in the pic though . But yeah , it was fun...the very ! Got tan a lil too but it's okay .

Came home and thn slept till 9pm thn Bert brought me out to Starbucks becz I was craving for my choco ice-blended .

Had lotsa fun...ohyass..Phoebs , didnt gt a shot with ya . The next time ard thn .

-Ollie-

exams are over...let's party

2007-10-07T01:48:00.000+08:00

Yeaaaysss...hurrraaayyy !! Exam's finally over . As in I'm done , I'm through...I'm FREEE . And it's time to burn all my books . Just kidding ! Ain't gonna do that . I'll need them for my next sem .

I dunno hw I did but it all comes down to one thing and that is I tried my best . Wait ! Is studying last minute trying ur very best ? I dun think so but trust me , u are definately a true Malaysian if u do last minute studying . Therefore , I am a true Malaysian . Bahahaha...

Neways , today's Stella's bday . Yipee Yeayyss....Had dinner in Chef's Special Restaurant .

Happy the Dappie Birthday Darling~~~

You look awesome...a year older , a year wiser ! Happy 19th Birthday !!

The burfday girl and I

Owhhss...Owhhss *desperation attacks* . Half way through dinner , Stella and Alice got up on their feets and started being bootylicious . Yeahh....sing for us Hot Mamas .

On the other hand , we decided to play crazy with fruits .

Winnie who helped us with the pic took a really long time . As in like seriously , my butt could have grown hair .

She took a really long time to snap and the orange in my mouth , everyone's mouth except for Gabriel was seriously killing us to the max as it was soooo sour . But hey , we wanted to do smth weird as in extraordinary...outa the blue....and thn , outa nowhere D'son came up with this idea and he dared me to stuff an orange in my mouth . I think it was becz he thought my mouth was tooo small and prolly the orange wouldnt fit in . In fact it did . Rite in front of ur face buddy..bahaha...

Owh look . Toying ard with Alice's bag . Read what's written on the bag . "I am nt a plastic bag" . Ahahaha...but trust me , I made her tapau food home only and only becz her bag's huge . Ahahaha...just kidding ! I didnt .

Cake eating time....

Thn we headed over to Soho after dinner and karaoke . Had a drink with Gerd cz it's also his birthday . Happy Birthday Gerd ~~~ Unfortunately , wasnt in time to take a pic with him .

Anddd , I'm sorry I missed my sister's party in Mojo . I wanted to come over but thn......there was just a lot of parties in one nite . I hope u had fun though . Happy upcoming birthday Mel !! Your 22 . Ewww...that's like old . Bahahaha....just kidding . Neways , I hope ur one and only wish comes true . He will definately regret one day becz ur an amazing babe ! U deserve better . At the same time I understand . If u cant let go , dont ! Take ur time . True love waits darling !

Gossshhhh....*checks time at the side of the screen* .

I should sleep nw . I'm going to Damai tomorrow morning....*yawns...think*.....actually today . In a few hours time.......and I havent done my packing yet . Sheesh mangs ! I'm just soooo lazy . I'll just rush and panic tomorrow . But for nw , I need me beauty sleep . Tralalala....*bed*

-Ollie-

2007-09-27T14:52:00.000+08:00

As you noe, Ollie & I badly just wanted a formal, fun, and fancy dinner... y'noe, good food, good wine, good company, dressing up, ...probably at the Hilton or Banquet. It was also supposed to be the last dinner with Perry :) He's going back to India where he won't have KFC or McD nearby. Ahaha~~ So we wanted one last night with him : that was last night.

The Banquet : the official jollie blog model ( Steffi ) & blogger Ollie. They ran squealing over to the car giggling "Vintage car!" and faced each other and quickly popped out their legs ( balancing ) and smiled spastically, leaving me with only one option, to snap.

So that's the dress up ( I was very simple. Black spagetti dress, diamond earrings, blue/green makeup ) ...and the good company with us was : Eldon, Justin Yeo, Perry Lee.

So that's 3 guys and 3 girls. and a meat place.

I don't get it. As classy or as cool ( loklok ) places are, nuthing seems to beat that '2 guys a girl and a pizza place" thing. *taps loklok stick thoughtfully on the steamed fishballs**'

I did make her the official blog model, because no other boobless piece of stick can express the fullness and personality of this hot and hottastiest blog except the girl in the photo :)

Teehees^^

Steffi & Eldon :D

B-e-as-beautiful ...as them~~~

Ollie on her orange juice.

Food was good; it's actually cheaper than what people would expect from going there...not much to complain about it, it's good :) Portion is probably very little if u r a XL eater and u are super hungry; it will onli make u loud and restless in the restaurant. Ehehks~

If you haven't tried it, no harm trying. The place is mood pumping to the maximum, if you have a gf and ur sick of being the boring dude hu takes her to onli loklok places or... like.. 5 bux Wednesday night movies,... try The Banquet. If u want formal, fun and fancy dinner, go there too, because you are, with every line, being convinced by this post to go~

Next stop, Eldon wanted to show Perry shuffling.

Perry, has never witnessed people shuffling.

That is not as bad as not knowing how to eat kueh chap. ( like seriously dude. jus stuff it into ur mouth and chew. so wad if it's organs? it's all in ur mind. it won't MAKE U grow extra organs inside. Altho i used to tink eating watermelon seeds would make u grow watermelongs inside ur tummy. )

-- anyway, so then we went to Mc3.

But even the Dj wasn't there yet.

So we stopped by Amoeba'r . .. for drinks, with Ivan's frens. I wanted to stay longer with these extremely high girls who wer kissing each other cuz i so badly wanted a piece of her, but yeah,... we decided to go to Senso first.

Moosey Martinis. Mine's Vanilla martini. From Perry's face I don't think it was very nice. I wouldn't have to have martini if Ollie didn't stop me from bringing Black Label "don't be so hardcore, can u?".

And then it was like I was possessed by Fate himself ( see I am not sexist ) and I went over to the entertainer and told her there's a beautiful girl sitting with me... who can sing like no one else in the room, and that I'd like her to sing a song. LeAnn Rimes : "How do I Live".

Ollie then tried to run away but she noes wad I would do if she did =)

I'm sorry to say this, but next time I am going to pretend I wan to duet with Ollie, take the mic, and go sit down. So no one else can go chap su.

When she sings, Senso gets high. Seriously. In fact she was so good I spilt martini over myself because her melody pushed my heart too hard.

Then the other girl had to sing one key lower and stopped Ollie for a bit. Like hu are we listening to? Her or Ollie?

After that we wen to Mc3.

IF you were sitting in MC las nite and u saw me and got my number and msged me, thank you. I would also like you to u noe, maybe.. TELL ME UR NAME? because i'm sorry but it freaks me out to the end of my hairs.

Then they wanted photos. But cool ones, not ugly ones in the middle of the loklok place.

So we stopped by Merdeka Palace to take photos :)

I'm not in because I feel that I was not very beautiful last night.

It's hard to understand.

It's also hard to say.

But it's nuthing big. Point is, i was happy photographing.

Teehees^^

It was not soo sooooo happening probably cous it was Wednesday night but i suppose it was fun :D teehees^^ Fun de dun de dun~~~~

-JILLIETHEWEENIEBEANIE--

TAPAO my loveeee~~~

2007-09-20T11:04:00.000+08:00

SO. about the doctor. that's in the chatbox; btw u people do u not realise wad How sed, even if YOUUUUUSSS are the ones talking about the doctor, i will get spanked first. Because I'm the closest to her wen she's readin it. Like now. But the comfort is dat she sez she is going to kill ALLLLLLL of us ( EVERYONE ). So, i'm not dat scared :) we can die togethergether ...in the purple chatbox.

OKAY. So the doctor is ACTUALLY nothing, bt we just associate him to Ollie becouz.. like they are both medical people! thus, PORN.

We went out with him last night; Perry's the name. AND, Polycarp~~ ex lodgian, one year my senior, and Justin Yeo ( he pretends not to like my pet rock ) --and he's an ex josephian, one year my senior. Of couz ther was Ollie and the other hamsap hoe Steffi babey :D

It's like being in a permanent high, with no escape from porn, and no cure for hornies.

First place we stopped at was "TAKE AWAY MY LOVE" -- tapao my love, and OPEN ME UP AT HOME!!! *roars as i do the ripping clothes off action**

IF u have NEVER heard of such a cookie crumby name, it's opposite the SUPP Hall, ( next to the rehab centre )...yeah, it's opposite it, and it's like a rented house.

THAT'S WHER WE GONNA SITTTTTT!!! WE GONNA SITTT!! (actually i'm jus pretending, becoz this was after i came out. We sat ther jus now. Just look at the cups. )

It has no signboard, so like, just... LOOK ...LOOKKK at the picture for a long time til u think u can rmr it wen u see it. To test urself close ur eyes, and imagine wad "TAKE AWAY MY LOVE" would look like.

It's a pretty place : for drinks, talk, food, finger food, beer, AND ther's WI-FI, mo kao cho ahh~~

Rose room!!!

Okay, so it's not called that. But it's a pretty place for chillin n eating. AND it's artsy too.

Or u can jus sit around n be lazy, and stil have quite cheap fun :) jus like a whore house. a chicken shop. "CHICKEN".

that's the lot of us : Ollie's hair, Steffi's blur hand in fast movement grabbing at nuggets, Polycarp and Justin Yeo. Oops, Perry is nowhere ...nowhereeee..

This is the NEW MODEL. THE NEW,..BLOG MODEL. She was the ultimate whore of the night, beating Ollie and me into second n third place. Which is a majorly big deal, because ...yeah, it's not usually like that ...i feel so unsexy...

Perry : *watching Steffi with scared eyes* ..she's on drugs, issit?~
Justin : haih, no drugs oso like dat wan..
Ollie & Steffi : we didddd.. we took cocaine n weed in the carrrr~~~
Steffi : *totally ignored that line and went on to chew aggresively on her loklok chicken butts because Polycarp likes chicken butts**

See, she's a real model. She can practically make EVERYTHING ( even sitting lazily ) look cool. This kind of model, can sell u ANYTHING -- even make u buy spare tyres wen u dun even have a car. COz she's goooddddd~~~

Ollie : i wan a photo wit ma bitch!!! *gets up and moves over to steffi*
Steffi : *moves to the sideof her chair*
Ollie : *gets down into it slowly*
*STUCK*
Steffi :EH!
Ollie : lols
Steffi & Ollie : *shuffle shuffle til asses have breathing space**

Steffi : GET SEXY WIT ME BABEHH!! *snap*

they have cool drinks too. Watermelong ( not typo, it's pronounciation, GETCHORSELF EDUCATED ) juice : RM4.00

I'm sorry to think this, but..

Ollie : it looks like a waterfall ho?~
Me : i think it looks more like a boob pump for milk. SERIOUSLY. *ollie gives me the faceeeeee** BUT for real. huever doesn't THINK it looks like the boob milk pump, TELL ME, and i'll SHOW U how it's done.

Steffi's Ginseng Chicken Rice : RM3.00

The stuff ther is pretty reasonable, hey?
Everythin's about 3/4/5 bucks.. all the rice n stuff.

I'm sorry this is quite random but i felt that ...it was so beautiful. *gazes into sky dreamily in the dark**

Me : *Excited* HEY! guess wad it is guess wad it is!!!
Ollie : -.- the moon?
Me : HOW U NOE?!
Ollie : i'm not stupid
Me : but does it LOOKKKK like a moon?
Ollie : yes.
Me : =(
Ollie : looks like a UFO u noe.. *weeewoooweewooo*waves arms in alien way to make herself look like a ufo*
Me : dun b crazy it doesn't look like a UFO. but ur smart to noe it's a moon.
Ollie : -.-

Ollie & Perry a.k.a. doctor.

Yeah. the doc and the med student. He looks like a cup :) I'm not being mean because at least I already told it to him in front of everyone last nite. Because his hair is.. like.. i dunno, it makes his ears sort of POP OUT! like *POOP!* so his head looks like a cup with 2 handles.

Jillian's head whispers : "PORN!!"

But they are both too tame to be like u noe, porny. I mean...just look at the doctor. *stares*

NEXT STOP : LE RENDEZVOUS

Camwhoring at the traffic light.

I look martianey, but i suppose it's okay considering it's a traffic light pic. Meaning, we jus snapped n snapped of ourselves sexily, while the lights turned green. Then Ollie took her time turning around the bend. LOLS. It's good she is a careful driver.

Sky wanted to buy us drinks he sed ( but isn't it ladies' night? -.- ) so we wen over. For sum SERIOUSLY un-understandable reason, the guys just REFUSED as in DIDN'T WANT as in RELUCTANT TO THE FREAKING MAX, ....to go to Le Rendezvous. Wads up with dat? They desperately wanted to go to Living Room. If there's sumthing weird or unearthly or ...yeah, wadever goin on ther, they shud tell us, not stand across the lawn n shout "HUHHHH, WAN TO GO MEHHHHHH?"

Later on in the night, the DJ was introduced to us. I think i showed the least interest. Sometimes I dunno wads wrong with me. People that people find hot, i find porcupiney, and people I find cute, other people wan to throw away. I feel I may possibly be, by this, the next Van Gogh because nobody appreciated him until he died.

Us sexying in Le Rendezvous~~

Awwwww~~~ ehehks... Sky & Ollie :D

WOOOOOHOOO! i wan to TOUCHITTTT!! :) u noe wad i mean~~

Nice to look, nice to hold, once high, considered ON!

I loveee this pic. This pic shud b in the hamsap hall of fame.

JOLLIE :D

Third Stop for the night~~ The Living Room

( there are less photos here thanks to MR JUSTIN YEO, yo~~ he kept lookinggggg and LOOKINGGG AND LOOOOOKINNGGGG until we had no time to take of everything we wanted to)

In fact wen the drinks first came, Steffi was shouting at Justin :-

Steffi : CAMERA!! WOI!! WHER IS THE CAMERA!!
Justin : *doesn't even look up, flips tru photos in cam*
Steffi : CAMERA!!!
Justin : *looking tru photos*
Steffi : haih. *starts eating her ice cream*

it's tiring asking for sumthing over n over again especially wen the dude is like lying there like a pile of ...lazy wood, in a beanie.

My beanie bitches.

Ollie & Steffi posing wit Justin's beanie. Everyone wans sum bean action.

The background is all zinc.

Zinc is like a kind of cool metal thing they use for pipes n stuff. I'm sorry i ruined the photo, but the point is to look for the BEAUTIFUL THINGS inside the photo. Like Ollie. Onli. Sighs. Of course other things ARE beautiful in the photo, but hearts aren't see tru, so we can't see the hot gangster baker . Coz he is damnnnnnnnn hot i tell u. So hot, the zinc will melt.

Okay, so i noe how it feels like wen ppl scribble ur photo as if it is like a public toilet wall.

So to make up, here is a better photo.

This shud go under medical services in the Telekom Hotline (777 : call me, i can help u *in sexy voice* ), or they shud like be Normah hospital models o smth. I wanted to draw a red ambulance cross above them, but like that i am again repeating my sin of vandalism.

Medical people are funny. It's like they have brains for all this kindsa ...science shets, but then they are pretty funny wen it comes to other areas. Like the best reason, this doctor can give me for his hair, was that "i dunno, i jus felt like cutting it". WAD KIND OF REASON IS DAT for his hair?~~

Do u realise that everytime ther's a group pic taken by a buddy, it means it's not ACTUALLY the whole group photo? and we din wan dat... so how? SELF-TIMING.

If u notice, the girl in black and usually in front and middle is STEFFI.

Please also notice she is the ONLI ONE who is ready in EVERY PHOTO!!!!!

People try to look ready, she is ther and all out with her POSING!!!

I tell u, i have jus officially lost the ...wadever.. name as cam whore.

It was so funny because ther wer two lim kok wing students ( me and....ermm.. JUSTIN ) and then rite, he was the one doin the timer thingy and adjusting the camera.. ehehks~~ then he would run *BOOMBOOMBOOM* over and sit bhind me and then we take. And then sumone not ready so it went on like dat for a lot of times.

4th stop of the night ( final ) ( FINALLY ) -- LOKLOK

So after living room, Carp read Ollie's craving and wanted loklok oso!!

So tralalalala~~ we wen along down to the loklok place.

It was onli here that i realise it was 3 girls and 3 guys. And a loklok place.

This picture makes no cents('sense' -- for the slow ones ) and dollars.

Ollie is happy.

BUT she is the onli one hu is happy.

Steffi is like.. bloated. FULL.

Me? ...hungry. i'll jus eat.

It makes no sense.

AT ALL.

Poly (~~ put the kettle on, kettle on, kettle onn~~ ) and PERRY.

REMEMBER THE FACEEE, PEOPLE.

It's the same guy who might one day, be saving ur life, from hepatatis. He might be the one to feel ur heartbeat. He may even get to see ur barenaked ass if he wans to inject you. He is Dr. Perry Lee.

But now he doesn't look like a doctor yet.

Because the BEST REASON he can give me for that hair, is "i dunno, i jus cut it".

But i would go to him, would'nt u?

BTW, we need a vote poll on the chatbox. I SAY, that the animal on Carp's shirt is a TURTLE. Ollie says it's a cat. Polycarp, doesn't even REALISE IT'S A TURTLE, he calls it a dinosaur.

So wad do u think it is?

IF u really don't noe, don't say u dun't noe. Say it's a turtle.

AND FOLKs, THAT WRAPS IT FOR TODAY'S SHOW ON JOLLIE7713.BLOGSPOT.COM *in cnn newsreader's accent**

-JILLIETHEBEANIEWEENIE--

Never gone

2007-09-11T16:31:00.000+08:00

~~ Never Gone :: BSB ~~

*click to play song*

I really miss you
There's something that I gotta say

The things we did, the things we said
Keep coming back to me and make me smile again
You showed me how to face the truth
Everything that's good in me I owe to you

Though the distance that's between us
Now may seem to be too far
It will never seperate us
Deep inside I know you are

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've gotta say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life
Never gone

No no no
I walk alone these empty streets
There is not a second you're not here with me
The love you gave, the grace you've shown
Will always give me strength and be my cornerstone

(Somehow)
Somehow you found a way
To see the best I have in me
As long as time goes on
I swear to you that you will be

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close
Everyday
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've gotta say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life

Never gone from me
If there's one thing I believe
I will see you somewhere down the road again

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close
Everyday
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've gotta say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are

It's harder than just saying...to actually move on , forget things . Can't help crying , can't help feeling sad . Sometimes it just seems that the only thing to do and feel is to be sad because nothing could actually happen at this moment . Eversince He left....things just haven't been the same.. just feels so empty. Going out with buddies sometimes...*sighs* yeah , laugh and I try to have fun...but it just feels that there's NOTHING happy after he left . I laugh yet I feel that I'm not actually laughing because I'm happy.

Sometimes I miss Him a lot . I just wish...*sighs* I don't know.... I really don't . Things seem very hard to wish for , but I wish I could see Him soon .

All these bad things and all these sad things only come to one thing : that I still miss Him .

-Ollie-

Life by Esprit

2007-09-08T11:54:00.000+08:00

Daddy just went back to KK on tuesday....Kinda miss him :(

But wait !! Look at what daddy bought for me..........

Life by Esprit

Yipee yeay yeay *shakes pom pom and slides into split* woooHooo !!!

I've always...wanted this though....*serious face...no kidding*

Dior addict 2
- Phoebe and How , I'll be waiting...*tik tok tik tok*...clock is ticking babeyy ! Hmmm....3 more months . *hinting*....It's a week before christmas....ahahhahahaha.... =) -

I loveeeeeeeeeeeeeee this perfume soooooo veryyy the much . I just love it . Was supposed to be my christmas pressie last christmas but mummy ended up buying me Jadore Dior . Ahahha...the wrong one . But it's okay . It's the thought that counts and I just love what-so-ever by Dior .

Yeayyysss...me favouritesssss...ME favouritaaaaa !!

Thanks to Daddy...love ya loads !

-Ollie-

Prom nite

2007-09-02T16:00:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was Medical Lab's first prom nite . It was superb...fun fun FUN ! It was in Grand Continential Hotel . The food was okay...wasnt great but edible . Yesterday was definately a busy busy busy day . Being in the crew aint easy..lota hardwork .

Woke up early , went to the hotel to help with the decoration and also to practice my speech . Yeahh...it took the whole morning . Then , Yvonne and I left the hotel ard 2.30pm to my hse to have lunch . After lunch , we rushed to the saloon cz I made an appointment . Yupsss...we were pretty much kick ass busy the whole day yesterday . Like for real ! We were rushing becz we had to be in the hotel by 5pm . Only for the crew members . You wouldnt have guessed what time I reached ?? Ahhaa...I reached at 6pm . Sorry but I seriously couldnt be punctual yesterday . And sorry to Nic cz he had to wait for a long time . *Girlssss and their make up*

Yesterday's theme was Garden Formal . Yupsss...but couldnt really find a dress for that . Mine was pretty much simple .

Here...take a look at the pics taken . Didnt have all the time in the world to snap nt even to eat becz I was soooo freaking busy hosting .

Chung & I

Me , Chung & Cindy

Me , Nick & Yvonne

Nana & I

Ohyyyaaa...thn I did the Poco-poco dance . It was sooooooooooo much fun . Ahahaha...Nt forgetting my nomination . Yeah , speaking of my nomination , Shane , Welter and a bunch of you guys....if you all are reading this , prepare yourself and your army this Monday for war cz I'm soooo gonna kill you guys for stealing my pics...ahahaha . Like seriously , they nt only kept it as a collection but they showed it during the prom yesterday . That's what I gt for lending them my laptop nt knowing that they were gonna steal my pics . Arghh....Ahahaha....

Yaaaaa....soooo my picture came up 3rd yesterday . When the slideshow was over...

mc : So there you have it . Who do you think should be our winner ?
crowd : *screams & shout* "OLLIE...OLLIE....OLIVIA KUNG SIEW PYNG"
me : hmmm...*hiding under the table*....Just kidding !
mc : cmon !!! who do you think is gonna win this ??
chung : Oli...Barbie Oli
me : hey ??? *covers face with jacket* ahahhaa
mc : *looks at me* oli ??? sadly to say........It's nt oli
crowd : worrrrrrrrrrrrr......booooooo *thn continued eating*
me : *laughed laughed laughed*
mc : *announces winner*

Ahahaha...actually , it doesnt really matter . Knowing that my name was yelled all across the ballroom made me happy . Yeeeayyss !!! *swings peace sign in the air and blows kisses*

Heyyyooos . Wassup wassup ma niggas ? If u aint gt no greens u aint welcome to da nigga club !

Ahaha...trying to talk the way a black man talks but it doesnt seem quite rite . Yeah...newayz , pics of last nite's hip hop and break dance . It was nice...pretty cool !

Towards the end , every table sent 2 representatives up on stage to choose our king and queen of the nite . I was pushed to but couldnt becz I was the mc . But hey , it's fun being the mc .

All the representatives....

But guess who won ??????

Who did ? Who ?

The winner

Is non other than................

*background music* Tadaddadadaa

Chungy & Cindy...wahlaaaa !!

Annndddd since I didnt gt to win....

Owhh puhhleeezzz...let me just hold it for a second and act as though I did wudcha ? Ahahaha...!

Well , it ended with a footlose....so everyone went up front to dance while I was busy taking pics with others . Amazing ! Felt like a celebrity when everyone wanted a pic but sadly...........Im nt..*toink toink toink* Wuahahahahah !!!

Seriously , there's just to many...but here are the few taken last nite . The rest...*thinks*...owhsss , are in...erm....I have no idea whos camera & phones . But those are theirs . Ahahaha...Gonna miss both my favourite lecturers who will be leaving us very soon *sob sob*

Sleepy and tired me

Then we had an after party in Grappa . Was there for a while thn I left cz was feeling really exhausted . But it was a blast and I had fun .

-Ollie-

Ratatouille. Not made in China.

2007-08-31T15:26:00.000+08:00

So Wednesday night was Movie night :)

Ollie, Seeme, and ME, wen to watch Ratatouille~~

..2 hours, jus watching one rat cook.

Reminds Ollie of someone who can cook. Yes, the RAT rite? I get it.

And what's with pulling the dude's hair? A rat sitting in a hat, pulling hair, and cooking.

When u tink about it ur actually more insane, to be paying to watch it do that.

The movie makes me want to have a rat for a pet.

Ollie is not going to be happy with me. She just told me rats are ...dirty =/

For real, I could die from a heart attack, anticipating accidents and sad/screwed up moments. ..

I cannot watch annoying things. But it wasn't so annoying. ..it was hilarious. If ur wondering whether to watch it or not, u shud jus do it like Nike says "Just Do It". Or u shun't buy Nike. -- i just told u it's funny, anyway.

HrmmM..

____________________________

So a few weeks ago, Ollie came by my place.

Ollie says this : When u see sumthing from China, jus... freak out. Seriously. Panic straightaway.
*straight face as she says this* ..and when you EAT THEM ALREADY,... jus ...die. No need to panic already.

She believes that, or at least is educating me to believe that... ANYTHING, just ANYTHING, from China, is bad.

U might find HUMAN MEAT in anything from China... be it cigarettes or condoms.

For real.

What did I jus tell you about tv and fairytales in my blog?~ Haih.. tv's are here for a reason *suspicious eyes stare at tv in the corner* . They ...make people freak out. But she heard it on the news. ..which is the tricky part.

So I gave her these choco french wafers to eat.

At first, Ollie sat there, taking it... eating it. She took ONE BITE.

Then suddenly...

Ollie : OMG JILL!

Me : wad wad?

Ollie : where are these from?! *covers mouth, as though the harmless bit of melting wafer in her mouth was electrocuting her**

Me : uhhh...

Ollie : OMG!!! DON'T TELL ME THEY'RE FROM CHINA?!!

Me : UHHH...

Ollie : *inspects cookie wafer* OMG!! I TINK IT'S FROM CHINA!! JILLLLL!! U GAVE ME CHINA THING TO EATTTT!! WAD DID I TELL U ALREADY?!!! DON'T EAT ANYTHING FROM CHINA, RITE?!!!

*Ollie goes uncontrollable, while Jillian picks up the cookie box and reads where the cookies were made, ... except Jillian doesn't read chinese or mandarin, and EVERYTHING on the box was... in chinese... how TO NOE WHERE IT'S MADE LIKE THAT?!!****

Ollie : *pretends to go into ...critical condition* Omg. omg. i'm going to die. What did i just eat? HUMAN MEAT?! omg..

Me : This is weird. everything is in chinese, Ollie. I donno where it's made!

Ollie : *looks like she is about to faint and jus die ( not from the China made biscuits, but she'll blame it on the cookies )** .... OWH.. i wonder. It's all in chinese, it's from CHINA!!~~ JILLIAAAAANNNN!!!!!! ... and look LOOK! it has.. WAD IS THIS?! *holds wafer up to see* ... LOOK it has the china tower thing on it!! and ...issit a chinese word?

Me : *calmly* i dunno. I tink so . Can u jus eat it. *still looking at the box*

Ollie : *panic attack* JILIAAAN!! owh.. i tink i can just die right now... *looks at biscuit* *shoves biscuit at me* Jillian u eat it!

Me : I ALREADY ate, Ollie. I ate a lot just now...am i going to die? *grabs biscuit box* -LOOK! there were 6 packs in here, and it's my fault ther's only ONE left!! ...but it's so funny la.. everything written on it is chinese.. like it's from China.. but then how come it's called FRENCH CHOCO BISCUITS?! frenchhh?!

Ollie : -.-" YES. French. *sarcasm* Sure.

Me : can u jus eat it? *back to calm mode*

Ollie : NO! u eat it! *gives me biscuit and walks away*

Me : no no no...

Ollie : Jill, can u help me hold?

Me : *takes biscuit*

Ollie : okay, u eat it! *runs away*

That's Ollie. With the biscuit of Doom.

From china.

Yes, choco on the outside, french vanilla cream on the inside. ( Ollie : ARE U KIDDING ME?! ) -- and u wan me to believe that i'm going to die because i'm eating human meat that's made into wafer and cream.

... then againn... mebe I SHOULD listen to her...

...then again.... what if i'm too paranoid?... wad if.. SHE'SSS too paranoid?!

WAD IF WE TINK WE'R PARANOID AND EAT CHINA STUFF AND DIE FROM CANNIBALISM?!!

*freaks out, as Ollie instructed*

Yeah. That's all about China stuff. Lolssss~~ remember. Don't buy can food from China : it may contain human meat. Don't buy cigarettes from China : it may contain human meat. Don't eat ANYTHING from China : you may be eating human meat. Freak out, people, everytime u see something from China. If you have already eaten it, i suggest u just die peacefully because freaking out will do u no good.

___________________________

B I K I N I S H O P P I N G **

So Ollie actually planned to buy a pair of bikinis for her Santubong weekend with her mates : that she din go to, but wad did i say, "PLAN".

There is NOWHERE to shop in Kuching.

I can't be more obvious about it. It's like... looking for a piece of peace in a warzone.

There is NOWHERE to shop for ANYTHING in Kuching...

...wad more to say BIKINIS : where der are tudungs, der cannot be bikinis.

The only place in mind : Inner Secret :D

-- I like this one!! i chose it, but apparently she was not so ...into it --

Picking bikinis.

After that, we went for tea... at sum Taiwan place next to Limited Edition :D

Are u kidding me? Is dat for Ollie AND me?!

...and THAT'S bout all the unblogged stuff der is :)

- Jillie -

Lancer & Princess

2007-08-30T18:10:00.000+08:00

Gt back from class on Monday & you would nt have guessed what my lil Princess did . She came to my room and brought my baju kurung top down . She would usually do that actually , I mean bringing down my clothes for me...ahaha...my second maid . Just kidding ! She does that for fun . She loves stuffing what-so-ever she sees in her mouth . Like for example , when the front door opens , she'll dash out to grab a pebble from mummy's flower pot . She prefers my sister's school socks actually . She's a lil cute weirdo !

Newayz , back to my story . She brought down my baju kurung top rite ? Thn , on my way downstairs , I saw it lying in the middle of the stairs andddddddd guess what i saw ?????

Yuuupppsss...A HOLE !!! She bit it . She tore my top . OH MY GOAT ! OHHH MY COW ! Like for reallllll...This is my only baju kurung and what's worst is we have to wear it every Monday . Arrrrghhhh...nevertheless , I still love her .

It's us....isn't she the cutest ?? Despite her ruining my baju kurung .

Ahhaha...she looks like a boy doesnt she ? Yuppsss...if you didnt see her in a dress , you'd prolly think she's a male dog . A lil boy . Y ? Becz she acts like a boy . Seriously , she aint feminine at all .

We just looooovvvvvveeee camwhoring together . She's just so photogenic isnt she ?

Yeaaahhhh....what will I ever do without both my doggies ? Lancer and Princess . They are like everything to me . Will nt ever trade them for anything . That is hw much I love them . Muahaha...

Owwwhhh look ! She's playing dead with me...A dedication in order to show her love , affection and appreciation to the family....haha !

My baby doll !

Princess is like everything . She's very crazy , she's cuteeeeeee , she's loveable....she's just everything . Did you know ? She hates taking bath . She gts very and I mean VERY crazy after her bath . She starts running up and down the house as though she was infected with mad cow disease or smth . Whenever kakak tells her she has to bath , she'll run all ard the house away from kakak .

Lancer on the other hand loveeeeesss to bath . He's just soooo ~~pretty~~ beautiful . He looks like a bear to me . Newayz , Princess learned hw to bark from Lancer cz she didnt know hw to when we 1st gt her as a puppy . She also learned hw to shake herself dry from seeing Lancer and....annnnddd...this is very funny . You should hear the way she howls when the Old Newspaper van passes by our area . OH MY GO *copies hw Jessica Simpson says it*......Princess does it outa tune . For real , Lancer howls like a wolf . Where as Princess , she actually sounds like a rat squeaking like the one from Ratatouille . Just kidding ! It's just soooooo outa tune .

Should check the way she eats . She's very fussy when it comes to food . She loves chicken , beef , ice-creams , certain fruits...watermelon , papaya , bananas . She hates pears , apples , sausages and yeahh...Im nt sure myself but I know she's very picky . Ohhyaaa...I would usually have hard boiled eggs for breakfast before my exams cz grandma tells me we are able to memorize what we have studied better . So I would eat the white and she eats the yolk for me . Lancer too . But...but rite...she will nt eat it if u do nt smash it into smaller pieces for her . Hw spoil is that ? Ugh *sticks palm out to face* LIKE THE VERY !!!!! Lancer ? He eats almost everything . No big deal . No proooobleeeemooooss...No worries ! =)

Yeahhh...you have to like let Princess know if it's time for her to eat or she wouldnt go . You have to say "MAMAM" thn she'll run to her food . Anddd another thing . You have to say goodnite in order for her to go to bed . But thn.....she'll walk to you lazily dragging her feet thn she'll half way stop . Meaning....you'll have to carry her to bed . SHE IS SOOOOOOO SPOIL !! Like a lil brat . And she isnt a real Princess and she's acting like one . It's only her name . Should have called her "Hardworking" or smth . But it's okay....She is hwever still my Princess .

Lookie lookieeeee....The best of friends .

On the balcony together....Awwww....*bites pillow out of geram-ness*

They looked as though they are planning to elope from the balcony or smth . Hahaha...Are you kidding me ? Princess...elope ??? *die of laughter* . She cant even come down from a table what more to say jump offffffffffff the balcony . She's just sooooo spoil .

She sits there staring at male dogs . Seriously , she's obsessed with male dogs as she is with pillows . If you know what I mean...*bouncy bouncy* . What I mean is......when she's high and stuff , she actually has sex with the pillow . No kidding ! It's hilarious . She seriously looks as though she was high on weed or cocaine or smth . She sometimes throw herself at me and ends up gting both of us hurt . But does she care ? Abt me I mean ? NOPE ! Like I tell you , she looks as though she took drugs or smth running ard like a mad cow . Okay ! Back to the male dogs part .She gts crazy when she sees them . She steps on me to climb up the couch in order to look out the window . Ugh ! Like for real , what am I ? Her freaking ladder to climb the freaking couch ??

Riteee...Arent they cute ? Kitty & Princess ? They grew up together . Kitty belongs to my sis , Steph . They are like the best of friends . Arent they the cutest most fluffiest animals ? Totally rite ? Ugh...I know !

Owhhhh Owhhsss...*serious desperation attacks* . They love playing hide and seek early in the morning . Kitty would usually hide and Princess would have to seek . And you know what ? They broke one of mum's expensive flower vase while playing . Did mum kill Princess ? NEHHHHH...sheesh mangs ! Nt at all . And she killed me for accidently breaking one of her vases unintentionally . Ugh ! *rolls eyes 180 degrees outa besong-ness*

Lancer & I

Gosh ! He looks bigger thn me . He is newayz . Ahahha...Or am I just tooooooooo small ?? Yuppsss....I guess Im just toooooooooo small . Geezzz !!!

Dig today's newspaper peeps . It's an article abt a filthy rich woman . Wait wait ! Let's seeeee...hmmm...there's more to it . OHHH MY GOAT ! An estate billionaire Leona Helmsley left US$12 MILLION in her will for her dog , Trouble but cut out two of her four grandchildren entirely . Holy shmoly Oly....Can I like be her dog ? 12 MILLION !!!! Are you bull crapping with me ? Sheesh mangs ! The day I earn that much is the day my butt grows hair or smth . Sheeeeeessshhhh....Hey , I'll do that too . Write a will for my dogs . Yeayysss....!!! *sticks peace sign up and starts dancing*

Newayzzz...prom's tomorrow & I've gt everything ready . Waittt !!! Except my script . I'm one of the mc's that nite . And I'll have to perform some sweet I have no idea what crap as an opening . Andddd nt forgting the "Poco-poco" dance . Ahaha....it's kinda funny yet very fun . So yeah....a lot to prepare . I'll update on that the minute my prom's over .

-Ollie-

Without Him !

2007-08-24T11:50:00.000+08:00

Gt back almost all of my exam papers . Hw did I do ? ahaha...dont ask . But I'll still tell . I did terribly . I think...I only think lar...that I failed 1 subject . Sociology ! Have u ever heard of a sociologist called Olivia Kung Siew Pyng ? Cz i wrote her theories and her judgements . Ahahaha...Like for real . I cannot remember all these sociologist's theories . Tooooooooo many I tell u . Heaps and heaps and HEAPSSSS to remember . My membrane cells were actually eating up my brain slowly and it somehw nearly exploded . Well , my lecturer actually asked us to guess of a scale from 1 to 10 , hw good did we do ? We guessed 8 . He told us we guessed correctly except that was hw bad we did . Man ! Does he have to like scare the crap outa us . Actually , I pretty much expected it cz I wrote whatever that ran through my head which was definately my own theories . Hmm...the highest so far...an A- . The rest...B's and C's . Hmmm...it's difficult actually , but will try better for my finals .

Hmmmm...sigh ! Depression is somehw eating me the way a fat man eats his burger .

I love this song by Joy Enriquez . Try reading the lyrics . Very meaningful !!

Cannot touch , cannot hold , cannot be together
Cannot love , cannot kiss , cannot love each other
Must be strong , and we must let go
Cannot say what our hearts must know

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want u here in my arms ?
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

Cannot dream , cannot share
Sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel how we feel
Must pretend it's over
Must be brave and we must go on
Must not say what we no longer long

Must be brave and we must be strong
Cannot say what we no longer long

A song that inscribes how I'm feeling . Sigh !

Have you ever wondered what izit like to love someone so much and that they are nt here ?
And all you ever wanted them to know is that you are thinking of them and that u miss them ?

Being in this love situation is like facing one of the most difficult challenges in life .
Love hurts....I mean seriously . If love is a very easy standard to pass....like that the world would be meaningless and everyone would not have to face difficulty in loving anybody .

Sometimes having almost everything in life yet nt having the one most important thing that can gv you happiness feels like having nth at all .

I knew that the minute He left , I would be very down and sad . At the same time I thought to myself , "hey , this would be good in a way cz forgetting him would be easier" .
I tried numbing myself for a couple of weeks after He left . I realised that I do missed him less , thought about him less but I didnt and couldnt stop loving Him . It isnt easy to love someone the way you love them and then later try to pass in on to someone else in order to forget and to move on . By numbing ? It works somehw..kinda.....well , nt really . You are able to nt think of them so much but you definately cant stop loving them .

I tried telling myself , I dont love Him , I dont miss Him , I dont think of Him neither do I want too . In short , telling myself things which are nt true at all .
But yeah , like in the song lyrics . I'll be lying to myself if i keep telling myself all this and it would for sure drive me nuts . At the same time telling myself to always be brave and strong . It's actually very and I mean VERY tough loving someone who is soooooo far away from you . Nt knowing their condition over the other side of the world . Hw are you able to cope with that ? To my suprise , I pretty much am trying my very best and I still am . I'm nt really there yet but I'm definately reaching . Okay ! Cut the act . Nt really...but I'm seriously trying with everything I've gt and of cz , friends to help boost me up .

I'm trying to think of all the negativities abt loving Him and all the bad things He used to do . Then again...hw ? Hw to stop ? Hw to nt think of Him ? Hw to nt miss Him from time to time ? It's impossible for me to look at someone else the way I look at Him. And it's definately impossible to feel the way I feel for Him with someone else . It's for sure nt the rite time for me to be attached with anyone at the moment at the same time , I dont think I'm able to yet . This whole thing needs some time to cool down . But hw long ? Honestly , I tried a million gazillion time to drop this whole thing . I tried doing it a lot of times . But it never really could work cz it'll be eating me up on the inside real bad as it is already . Thn I thought , wat the heck...I'll just let it be and let time do the rest for me .

"How does one walks away , from all of the memories ?"

Memories are to be kept and nt to be thrown . Every minute spent with Him I shall keep and somehw think of it as a happy moment . Bad or good , sad or happy...I'll just keep it ! =)

I went through a hell load of pain loving Him . But never did I complain . Well , it killed me a lot but never once did I thought it was nt worth it . Seriously ! I cried buckets of tears for Him . And y ? Only and only becz I love Him . What did it feel like back then ? It felt like a knife stabbing me in the heart when we were nt talking at all . Hw izit nt painful to love someone and yet nt be able to talk to them ? He sorta shut me outa his life ever since we left each other and went our own ways . I tried telling Him I still loved Him but He completely shut me out . But from everything I went through with Him , I've learned a lot . To open up that square head of mine and look out into the world and see what life has to offer . I'm still that same girl . But I've opened up by thinking a lot more mature nw . See things in different angles . What's rite and what's wrong . But I've owez known that just that He thought me a lil more . I've never loved anyone the way I loved Him and that I wished He knew .

Then here we are , a year and a half later...Abt that actually . Him coming back into my life felt like one of the greatest thing ever . Never saw anyone after Him . Never actually really could . Well , as nt so weird as it sounds actually , trying out with someone else after Him wouldnt work..Oh WAIT ! It's nt weird at all actually..Hahaha . But no one can compare to Him at this point . I see smth in Him that somehw nt a lot of ppl do . I see the good outa the bad in Him as well , and that nobody really sees it . Nobody really understands y am I soooo into Him still ? He's special and like what Jill says , He will always be a part of me no matter what...nt phsically but emotionally . Friends after friends telling me in a way that I should just let go of everything . Telling me I wasnt really appreciated and that I deserved better . Thn again , they tell me that this is somehw one of the saddest love "scenes" ever and that I'm in it . It suddenly reminded me of a more modern Shakespere story...ahaha..Come to think abt it , that's sad ! Well , no matter what...I'm always grateful for all their supports cz never did anyone tell me I should stop becz I have too . But they did tell me I should becz I'm hurting . But could that work also ? I dont think sooooo....sighsss !!

I just know whatever that had happened...HAPPENED ! And that we cannot change or turn back time . I never regreted telling Him that I still love Him . Becz I wanted Him to know that I havent really moved on and that I see Him the way no one sees Him . Ppl do tell me I'm stupid . Trust me ! But y ? Does loving someone makes you feel stupid ? Embarrassed ? In that case dont fall in love lar...ahaha...

He somehw means a lot to me . In a way , half of my heart feels like it's nt here with me and that it's over there with Him becz that's what I gave . Nt that He brought it but it felt like it went with Him...ahaha...weird rite ? But it's true . Nt that I'm nt able to live...my meaning is nt able to love someone yet becz it's still with Him . And that I've somehw lost a part of me when He left .

Ppl do make sacrifices and He'd prolly did the same thing .

I just want Him to know that I still am missing Him back here and that I really wished He would come back home soon enough .

"Remembering yesterday, loving you 'til today"

-Ollie-

Girls Night Out

2007-08-20T21:20:00.000+08:00

So Saturday night was our Girls Night Out.

Okay, so maybe we didn't purposely make it a girls' night out but then since we didn't sumhow call any dudes, it's sexy to call it Girls Night Out.

HMM... first stop, FEVER.

There was sum event that we didn't noe about, and I met Stevie and Anthony Pui hu talked about my naked and cold tauhus :D

THEN, we went over to The Office.

There was... Lily, Doreen, Karen, Oli, and I.

Us @ The Office : Lily, Karen, Me, Ollie ... Doreen took the pic :)

THAT'S US AGAIN!! WEEEHOOOO~~!!!

CANDID SHOT!

WHy it looks like she did it purposely?

it's like.. natural.

TOILET PHOTO!

Because we like toilet photos. Makes us feel real girly. It's like all the shots at the Ipanema toilet. With these really irritating people saying "scuse me" "scuse me" to get to the toilet. Why can't u see ppl are taking photos, and jus swallow ur bladder for a min o smth. Seriously.

I like going out with girls hu like to have fun like ordering beer, but do not really drink.

Because I do.

As in I drink. A lot more. Which means it's HAPPY HOUR FOR MEEE!

*weeehoo~~*

So, what happens to people like Ollie and this other guy I noe hu CAN'T really drink but drinks?

You'll start to look funny : adjusting belts for no reason, and not being able to stand up straight for long, eventually falling backwards or forwards. Depending on gravity.

AHAHHAHAHA~~

It's actually not that stupid. But Ollie is damn funny. Esp if u look at how she parked the car. So messy. But she still drives pretty alertly, u noe. That's why I say she's funny.

It's like u still can tell which is the screwdriver and which is the toilet brush, but u pick up the screwdriver and stick it into the toilet bowl, staring into it like it is sum small screw.

It looks like she actually posed for this.

Like I told u, u could probably take a photo of her falling down and it looks like she's dancing gracefully, like a freaking swan.

Haiz.

But really, this is Oli wen she gets tipsy and is hungrily waiting for her lok lok.

She becomes unresponsive and laggy, but still beautiful.

Lok lok. HUNGRY the mungry!

What we ate : sotong sotong sotong ( Oli's fav ), kangkong, fuchuk, mussel+fishball.

And we drink chinese tea with spoon.

And that's about all for teh night. Because I got sleepy and wanted to go home after that.

Teehees^^

-Jillie-

Yeayyss...Bird meat , bird meat !

2007-08-18T16:13:00.000+08:00

Came back from class at 6pm yesterday . My naughty bitch aka Stef called me . She wants me to accompany her to kch fest to take pics for her assignment . Soooooo...hw tired i was , i accompanied her . Second time going to kch fest . Nt a very big fan cz it ain't exciting at all . Thn she came and fecthed me from home thn we left ard 7.15 pm .

Kch fest was sooooooo packed . Looks as though ants were scattered everywhere looking for food . HAHAH...Saw a couple of weird dressings . Stef would usually point them out to me . She's better at noticing weird trends .

ahaha...i'll be in stef's assignment...

Newaysss...our 1st stop , the Garden Show . Stef had to finish taking pics in order for us to EAT EAT EAT !! So , I helped her snapped pics of flowers and plants . When we were done , we headed to our 1st stall of the nite to gt ourselves bird meat . I was craving for it eversince trying it the first time coming . Morover , they were like the cutest thing ever . Their legs and wings were sooooo very the small mangs ! SOOOOO CUTE ! Thn we met up Harris they all , and told them we'll join them after buying food .

YESH YESH...eat eat EAT...and smoke ur lungs away...

Ohyaaaa...like seriously...chechechecheeccckkkkittt out !! Check out this dude here in blue . Alan Ling...he is soooooo vain I tell u...

Stef : Hey , u know what ? Ur in oLi's friend's blog you know ???
Alan : Hw come ? What for ?
Ollie : Cz ur engtau mar....ermmm...she claims that ur cute thats why ur there .
Alan : Seriousssslllyyyy ???? *stood up and started posing like a model*
~OMG...i nearly gt choked with all the bird meat stuffed in my mouth . It was super duper hilarious~
Ollie : For real
Stef : Yaaalaaarrrr.....ngaiti ! NO 4 some more...
FRIENDS : yerrrrrrrr...NO 4 worr...(thn speaks in chinese-didnt really understand)
Alan : NO 4 ar ?? Haiizzzz *nods head*....NOT GOOD ENUF ! Must be in top 3 thn satisfied
Stef : Haiya...u ? top 3 ? ngaiti...u beat a hotter dude(according to ollie he shud be 1st but stef doesnt think so) who is NO 5 okay ?? like that still nt satisfied ??? Tiam lorr...
Alan : Nt satisfied...must go to Guardian Pharmacy to buy OLAY !!!
FRIENDS : laughed till our farts came out .

SEEEEEEE...this guy is so vain . Seriously , stef tells me that all the time . I've never really met a guy this vain in my whole entire 19 years of living on earth . Just kidding ! I'm exaggerating . My cuzzies pretty vain too . Apart from him...hmmmmm *scratches head to think*....nt that I noe . But Alan , he's seriously soooo vain . Wonder hw he ended up being NO 4 in Jill's engtau kia's list ? What wrong with you Jill ? The dude uses Olay...ahahha...prolly whitening . Ahaha...

After eating...we went to look for food again cz I was still hungry . I'm always hungry newayz . So we went to buy Uncle Bob's chicky .

Guy : Yesh miss ? what would you like ?
Stef : Popcorn chicken
Guy : Sorry ! We're out
Stef : HAIYAA...everytime wanna buy alwayz finish 1...
Guy : Thn the chicken lor...spicy ?
Ollie : *Eyes grew bigger to gt sympathy from stef cz i dun want spicy*
Stef : *looks over at me and gave me her evil grin* and said...I'll take the spicy one...KEKEKE
Ollie : Owhhhhowhhhhowhhhh
~Abt 3 minutes later~
Guy : Here miss
Stef : Can discount mar ? 4 bucks lar...I gt no 50 cents wor..
Ollie : R u kidding me ? *turn ard to gasp for air* What ? You think its a discount store ? Hahahhaha...
Stef : aHAhahhaa...i know it's nt but seriously...can or nt ?
Guy : Sorry miss...really cannot lar...
Stef : K lar K lar...nahhh....5 bucks
Ollie : Yerrrdehhh...sen chee worrr...wooHoo !!
Stef : Ahhahah...no lar...here ! take it !

After that...we went to watch some concert going on . Some performance were okay...they danced well . And some were just pretty much fun to laugh at .

Look at the female in the middle . She waaaasss seriously funny . The audience was pretty much laughing at her . She did her sexay thang on stage where she had to changed behind a white piece of cloth . Guys were going hysterical . Stef and I ? Laughed our fart out . FOR REAL ! Only and only because SHE is a HE ! ahahha...that's y we were laughing . It looks obvious from this pic rite ?

OhhOWhhhoWhhhsss *jumps excitedly* . The host of the nite..what abt him ? He was soooooo cute . Stef kept snapping of him instead of the performers . Ahhhaa...he was HOT *pssttt* until I saw the way he dressed....turns me off...but nevertheless...he's cute...ahhaha . He's the one on the right in the pic .

After that , we decided to head home cz we both were exhausted . And I am having early class the next day . Yupp !! On a saturday . And piles of assignments to finish up . But before that . Look at what my bitch bought for me....

Yupppsss...she bought me a doggie balloon . Mine's purple and her's is red .

Yeayyysss...a purple dog

On our way back home...as usual . What do we always do ? Possibly , as crazy as it sounds...we sang at the top of our voices . That's what we alwayyyyyssss do . Ohya...and stef was definately in a moment . Perhaps thinking of someone working in ~~Thomas and Guys~~ ey ??

Apuhhh !!! Jiwang betul....Yerdehhh...

Gt home..took my shower thn continued doing my assignments . That was it . One hell of a crazy nite .

-Ollie-

Rhythm of Ice, the Beat of Hearts.

2007-08-17T14:25:00.000+08:00

Today , came over to Jill's house after class . Thn , she wanted to go over to Lim Cock Wing to collect her application form soooooooooo I drove her there . While waiting for ~~Albert's~~ Jelly Babbeeeeyyyy......I waited in the car and realised LKW is infested with HOT guysss.....*psssstttt*.....sigh ! But they just can't compare to Him =) .

Yaaaaa....thn rite , I saw Jill coming outa LKW . My car was rite inside the carpark and i thought Jill saw me but.....NOOOOOOO !!! She started walking all the way pass the carpark and outside . Like seriously , she lacks Vitamin A . Thn I had to drive after her and shout her name so she would realised . Jill came in sad....so brought her to eat ice....to cool her down . Thn , I brought Albert along . We went to Rhythm of Ice to have pearl milk tea .

Awwww...Bert's soooooo the naughty....

Bert made my dog smoke

Helping Jill to fill up her application form cz she's the LAZY one....kekeke

Me sucking up 2 straws . REMIX BABEEYYY !!! yeayyyy *sticks peace sign up into the air*

Jill should definately take up photography . It's an art....hell yeahhhh....

Ohhhh oHHhhh....*desperation attacks~PUG FACE* . Bert started checking out the Ah kuas next door in Mdm Tang's . He kept calling them my best friends . Like for real , what's in that empty botak-taks head of his huh ??? Maggots ? ~~Jillian~~ ? Hmmmm...possibly

Yeah...so what ? I like ah kuas . They're soooo the stylo milo and gentle . Okay , in a way...nt gentle...i dunno hw to say....they are so feminine yet somehw very manly . OHHHH OHHH...*jill's excited face* , I just loveeeeee their accesories . Somehw , better in dressing thn lotsa REAL girls . No offence to those out there...I'm a girl too .

Check it out peepsss....CHECKKITOUT !!!!

I study medical so i know that whatever they are using to make their yogurt is wrong & B.A.D . Thn again , I'm nt sure . Wth....like seriously , ignore me for a minute .

My point is......Streptococcus is a very harmful species of bacteria that contributes to diseases like pharingitis and that they are using it to make yogurt . Sooooooo peeps out there , think twice abt it . Just kidding , I had pepermint tea today . And Bert had smth blue . Yet again , they are still bacteria . Hahahaha....*confused* . Hw isit possible to use bad bacteria that lives in higher-than-body-temperature ? I'll check and let y'all know okie ???

Ahhhh....I have class soon .

Thn at 5pm , I have a meeting regarding my course's prom . Havent gt myself a dress yet . Sigh ! But......at least i found my shoes yao ! It's a killer shoes....It's sexy , it's HIGHHH , It's classy but u gotta wait till the prom for the pics . 1st Sept.....soooo hold on to ur panties ppl !

Shoeshopping in Kch is crazy...madness I tell u....IT'S MADNESS !!!! Searched the whole of kuching for those particular shoes . Newayz....gt them already . It's time to look for my dress .

Oppsssie daisiiiieeee...time for class .

-Ollie-